i.am.spartacus!!!!

it's been a while... i know.

working smart isn't working well for me these days.

i gotta grind through my teeth to get things done. literally.

definitely, the stress factor had been bumped up to the roof!

i hope i can finish up everything so i can quit after this year. i've accumulated enough know-how in the trade to start my own little "business".

yep, i hope to start next month... i don't care if that means i'll double the stress. i gotta go out and test the waters while i'm still a 'hotshot'. once i'm unserviceable, it's game over for me.

yeah, it's out now... better commit.. get rich now.. or die trying. hah!

my little angel is going to school.. finally!

can't believe how time flies. once upon a time, she was just a little baby that i didn't want. now, she's all grown up and eager to learn.

love her more everyday...

neil is a teenager too! today, we just went riding motorcycles together getting the bikes tuned and repaired.

he can really step up when the situation calls for it. well, he learned driving my bike by himself... when i accidentally left the key, that is.

me and him have this elaborate plan hatched together when we finally dive into this thing called entrepreneurship.

here's hoping it'll push through and work out as planned.

in times of hardship, there's definitely an opportunity on the horizon. sometimes, we just need to get to that point in order to look outside the box.

these ebooks and audiobooks that we've immersed ourselves into, they are awesome!

i wish i had the time to read 'em and listen when i was at neil's age.

but, it's never too late to start, right jim? brian? and everyone else?

anyhow, prepare! the day of the reckoning is at hand!

it's time to...

adapt.

wow... days just blows us by, huh?

it's kinda crazy in the office these days.. so many new faces! boy, how we have so many new babe and greenhorn.. they're everywhere!

yeah, there are only four of us left from the original.. hhmmmm.. lemme think fifteen.. twenty? can't remember exactly.

i tried quitting a few times. i remember the two times but i'm almost certain i resigned three times.

i wonder if i quit now, will they finally let me go considering i'm *cough* *cough* old?

i'm really good at what i do these days but there's a bit of a snag.. i'm not as nimble and as quick as i used to.

now, we have all these new faces and i'm wondering when are they gonna put somebody who will be my heir apparent. most departments already have somebody to assist them while i'm still a one-man-show. not that i mind.

anyway, whatever. after many years of being here and doing what i do, i'm very adept at adapting.

i'm open-minded and i play my card with aces up my sleeve. i don't think i'm that smart but it's working out fine for me.

i dunno if it'll work out for everybody, but my single biggest trick is, to keep a low profile. ya know, stay in the shadows.. below the radar.. out of the map.. away from the magnifying glass.

and then, there is God of course, you atheist!!

wifey however is the opposite. she likes to being the center of attention. if she can get a selfie on top of the highest building or a mountain, she'd gladly oblige.

just a few days from now, we'll fly out to Palawan. exciting!



meanwhile, that's all there is today.

check your pride

love this....



***

how's the weather in your part of the world?

it's been chillin' like a villain these days around here...

it's taking a toll in some members of the family.. me included.

work is, uhm, complicated... to borrow the word from what site was that?? hah!

yep. i've been getting a lot of heat lately. too much backlogs on practically everything. can you blame me?

when we began we sold around twenty units per month.. now, we're up to sixty. that's excluding the other branches. Tacloban was giving good numbers but we know what happened, they got wipeout.

and, i'm still doing these things all by myself!

i have no complains really... just as long as they don't rush me to produce everything all at once. my boss isn't too understanding.

one more shit from him and i'm goin' to a grand vacation.

we'll see what happens next.

i know about that "no one is indispensable" thing, so don't lecture me about it.

it's gonna be hard losing a job at this juncture. i mean, whose gonna hire a forty year old man other than call centers, eh?

but it doesn't matter. sometimes, you just have to go out there and throw yourself into the sea. i mean, i've been busting my ass for this company for almost fifteen years... two years before that, i was also working for them but with a different brand.

i'd like to try some freedom from them and do my own thing. i don't know if i still have anything left in the tank that can turn things around.

i can't be thankful enough to them. i've learned and grow a lot and at the same, it allowed me to put food on the table for my family.

anyway, i don't look forward to that day, but it's best to be prepared.

***

so, Biggest Loser is back in the office. i've ballooned a lot since the last time we did it. although i gain a lot of muscles, fat is all over the place as well.

i can't be thankful enough for my office mates who reboot this contest. it just puts me into that page again where i'm really focus and that determination to win, though the feeling is tiring.... but it's AWESOME!

especially if you start buckling your belt and there's that hole that inches forward as days go by.. until you're in the last punctured part of your belt.. WOW. it's good!

best part is, i can run again. been doin' a little sprint and walk (HIIT) cardio in the treadmill and boy, does it just fry your fats out.

wifey is also into running, her latest passion. i'm just waiting for the right time so i can run with her early in the morning. don't expect me to beat her anytime soon. she's been joining fun runs since last year and is a top three to five finisher.

i have this new gym gear called FatGripz. i got the extreme variant where the diameter really mimics or perhaps even thicker than fat bars. U.S.A. has a lot of 'em fat bars. here however, i haven't seen one yet. perhaps a rarity.

so far it's been good. my forearms are fried long before i could get into the top weight. it definitely offers variety and to a certain extent, challenge. you should try it sometimes to know exactly what i mean.

it's nice to yack s'more, however, bed is calling.

chi-chao!

I Can..

WOW! it's been what, forever?

yep, got caught up with a lot of things. like a lot.

the work had been nothing but...

about two month ago(?), i've been holdin' office upstairs. we have this renovation going and it's taking eons!

so, what happened? about three or four departments had been fused all together. we are all shacked up in one big room. nice, huh? boy, it's been HELL.

most of these are ladies... and LOUD. my ears are bleeding!

thank God for earphones. but even then, it's still a pain in the ass. it's like listening to degenerates.. i feel dumber each day that passes.

and the renovation isn't gonna finish soon either... thus, i'm stuck with the loudmouths! it's soooo annoying, man.. i hope we can move back to where we've been..

**

my older brother whose been on rehab for almost a couple of years is back with us. good to see him making improvements.. big ones!

i hated him when i was younger for all the stupid things he pulled. but now, i have nothing but love for him. it's good to have a brother around the house. even my elder half sister is with us now. the house she's been staying since her childhood days had been sold. she's got nowhere to go, so she's here. like i have a choice, huh?!

anyway, we're one, big, quirky family now! what's really odd about this whole arrangement is, both of my siblings aren't married, my wife's brother is just as single.. even my older sister abroad is still single too!

here's hoping for the best!

**

speaking of sister, big sister is coming home this year. we're all excited. our nanny and her nephews (daughters of my dearly departed nanny) are also coming over. they've been residing in Manila for years now. they aren't exactly, ya know, well off there but they'd rather be there so sister's bringing them here for some RnR.

another thing to be excited of are the presents.. hehe.. little brother had been asking about our sizes. he always buys the good stuff.. sister's kinda cheapskate on stuff, but when it comes to goodies, she brings it.

**

workout had been so-so. i was gonna start running.. do some interval training but had an unfortunate mishap. i was at the mall to buy some compression shorts for my grand plan - run around IT Park after office hours. while walking to the parking lot, i stumbled on some hump.. all because i was looking at this dog the guard was walking around. i fell hard on my right knee.

boy, i couldn't care less about the embarrassment. the pain was almost unbearable!

iced it after arriving home. next day, deadlift some three hundred pounds. stupid! i thought it's nothing cos i can bend my knees. next thing i know, it just swelled like there's a small ball stuck inside my knee. i could not bend it anymore. fcuk me!

t'was a nightmare.

could hardly walk but managed to get inside the bathroom. good thing i got some guy to buy me some ice and iced the area for an hour.

for almost a month now, haven't done any leg exercise.

this week, i managed to walk in the treadmill and do some stationary bike. at least it's healing up.

**

Sinulog's comin' up. my pal who shares my namesake will have a party at his house a day before the festivities. he does it annually... what usually happens is, i get hammered the night before and i don't get to go out the next day.

it's gonna be more fun now cos we have this new pal who came out of nowhere and is a mighty made guy. if you're familiar with the Italian mob, you know what a made guy is.. otherwise, google is your friend!

if i have it my way, i don't really mind not going anywhere. i'm pretty set at home with all the fun stuff i managed to amass... that is, modesty aside.

but, it's also nice to go out , let your hair down, loosen up, get wasted with your pals. although you scorch a few brain cells, you get to stimulate it at the same time.

so, lets say, we'll just roll with the punches.

**

anyone seen that awesome movie, Lone Survivor movie yet? very nice!

i don't know about you but i'm sleepy, tired and bored... so, 'til next year?

work, work work!

there's no escaping work this week.

no way to outsmart it. if it's right up your face and shoved on your throat, gotta work or bust!

that was unexpected. thanks to the good Lord above, it is over and we pulled through.

guess the cockiness on my last post was tested this week. if i didn't do the smart thing before, i would have had a hard time dealing with our compliance issue.

anyway, the long weekend, thanks to the two-day holiday, is coming soon. i'll take that as my reward hehe!

hope my li'l brotha is having a grand time out there whilst celebrating his birthday... our former nanny and them families, who lives in that flood-stricken part of Manila, may their situation improve also.. watching the news is really stressful these days considering how difficult their predicaments are.

it is how it is. we just have to roll with it and hope to come out on top.

cha ching!!!

sm@rt@ss

my, my..

this evening workouts has taken a toll on my sleep pattern. it's been days since i've been having sleeping problem!

had some solid thoughts earlier.. as useless, it got caught in the wind, damn! i bet if i think hard enough i could remember..

oh yeah, some people work really hard. nothing wrong with that except that it's stressful. i know a few people who do and they barely play.. it's all work, work, work.

my job, it requires a lot of working hard. i know a lot of people in my line of work who quit or gone rouge on the company they work for. they could not handle the stress.

most of them work in tandems. it's the best set-up. one takes care of the office work, the other goes out to the field to transact or process the documents.

i have managed to stay on this job for years and still can afford to "play" like workout or just chill... you know how i do it?

it's the smart.

i adhere to that saying that goes "work smart not hard."

even though i'm the only one who does everything, i got it all figured out, thanks to the good Lord above.

my system is pretty simple. i had a trainee a few months back. he's gonna be assigned to another branch and boy did he had a hard time grasping my way of doing things. he had some foul-ups along the way because he could not follow simple instructions.

and another principle i really, really like - K.I.S.S.

no, not the make out one you horny punk!

it's Keep It Simple, Stupid.

you'll accomplish more things by getting down to the basics.. when you complicate matters, you'll end up with nothing.

my son, Neil likes to complicate things. he's being philosophical as of late and i go, why are you having a hard time figuring things out, it's not rocket science?

it's the generation gap. i know.

anyway, i have to make an impression to him. ya know, give him the proper tools so that when he's all grown up, he would rather choose the path that's best for him. if i've been through that road before and i know it ain't good for him, i'd tell him.

he's a good boy though. he listens. if i would compare myself to him before when i was at his age, he is definitely way, way better than me. but, there's a good reason why we're not at par... it's something i would rather forget.

pep talk is over, i feel drowsy now thanks to GrandMa.

ciao!

ya better run!

the internet had gone berserk again.. going on and off for days. sucks!

anyway, bought Neil a new guitar. plays really nice... and expensive! when sister had a vacation a few months ago, she bought him one. after a few months, he's gotten really good at it.. pretty much beat me on some tunes! his guitar tho, well, it's quite worn out now. but still playable.

this new one, it's more than twice expensive but plays twice better too! i kinda enjoy playing guitar again. Neil would most likely surpass me, my li'l bro, Alan (who plays flawless guitar!) and my buddy, Earl. he's just fourteen and he's playing cool tunes now. he's got some good licks and plucking too! to think he's just playing for almost three months now.. he'd probably beat John Mayer when he's fully grown up.

***

work volume had gone up considerably these days. it's a good thing i've set-up a some sorta system so that no matter how huge of a sale we make, it's all go on my end.

*****

been able to run a tad longer now. then, on HIIT, i'm scaling back to the speed i used to kill before. hope to keep it up... it's not all roses to tell you frankly.. but, it's getting better.

better post this before the effing connection goes off again!

outsmart

there's a bit of shayt going around the office lately. some new folks are up my ass.. i've been doing a lot of emails to the semi-big boss explaining things. it kinda zapped the zest outta me.

we're pretty busy right now with all the shebang of things that's going on.. these kinda thing just take your focus away. i know... it's their job. might have been that they are ordered from the higher echelon of them - management.

well, lets just see how thing shape up in the coming days... then, come up with an action plan.

anyway, work can go the eff itself off... let it worry by itself.. ya know what? bring it on!!

meanwhile, conditioning had been improved a bit. the endurance had gone up, thank you!

it's gonna get tweaked, adjusted and more importantly, bump-up as days passes by.

i've got a lot of unfinished stories to tell. someday, it'll be given its proper closure. if i wasn't worried about anything else, i'd love to get me some freedom.

gotta bust my ass... for now.

pudz and pool

there goes the darn bug again. got some runny nose and been coughing a lot lately... what else? aches all over. joint paints abounds... it's all downhill from here.

don't feel like blogging for the nth time yet again.

my Rottweiler was successfully dragged down from the rooftop by none other than moi. he was pretty adamant. he didn't wanna go down the stairs without a fight. i win, obviously.

we have this new inflatable pool up there so it's not safe for the kids to hang around with him dog also. he's barking like hell when they're there enjoying the pool and it pisses the neighbors. ya know, his bark isn't like any ordinary bark... it's really loud and annoying cos he seems to not get tired doing all that. he is downstairs barking like crazy right now. duh?!?

Neil is getting better with his guitar playing and mah little Angel Mitch is getting bigger everyday. it's cool how this kids are growing up. it's like watching miracles everyday... one day they do this and that and i'm kinda amazed at how quickly one can learn how to play this instrument and the other is grasping a bagful of tricks on her own.

work.

is starting to pile-up after months of less than stellar sales. well, it's good money-wise. when we're not selling, it feels like our morale is down and scarcity in terms of finances is obvious.

so yeah, thanks for everything, good Lord.

when there was drought, we relaxed a bit... recharge, sorta. and when the monsoon came, it was time to put our game face. i hope we're ready. lets make it personal: i hope i'm ready.

still sore from the training session yesterday. i can feel my immune system getting whacked from overtraining, but heck, one good, loooonngggg night sleep and it should feel better.

tomorrow, is a brand new day.

looking. forward.

lazzyy

lazy got down from the train... what that means is, i'm effing getting lazy again 'bout this thing right here! yaikz!

well, if i really think hard about it, i've been a bad boy at getting really lazy with everything, to be perfectly honest.

lazy with work, them workouts, the chores.. etc... etc..

i don't think i like this road i'm taking. after such a busy few weeks early this month, it's been pretty much downhill. guess i relaxed.. a bit too much... ya don't wanna know how... hik hik!

anyway, still knockin' some serious weights off and the strength had been short of outstanding, albeit less consistent.. getting enough rest in between workout days is definitely important to me now. i feel stronger when i'm fresh. so that means i just go by feel. if i feel like i haven't recovered fully enough, i'm not gonna force the issue. mostly, i'm good to go late afternoons whilst before, early morning was a habit.

i use to do a lot of cable pulldowns before... but my lats sored a lot, lot more doing pullups, chins and the neutral grip. i'm learning how to kipp so that when it gets harder to pull myself up, my legs kinda kick-up a bit to sorta give me momentum.. nice move.

indeed, there's so much to learn but so little time.. right now, i wanna yap s'more but... it's just it, i'm so primed for bed..

Happy Birthday to my best pal, Earl.. he's really older now.. better get married and have children already man!!!

in the zone

gotta write in spurts here.. it's been one helluva jump start for 2012. things are slowing down though as i got everything under control. but just like any other time and any other given day, ya gotta be prepared for whatever's being thrown at you... or you'd get caught with yer panties, err, i mean pants down.

well, it is inevitable we'd slowed down. the production of our new models had been halted/delayed due to the flooding in Thailand last year. hopefully, by second quarter we'd go ballz-to-the-wallz again.

**

i feel pretty fresh in the gym as of late.. took a three day off. been focusing on the big lifts and lessen the accessory exercises.. it's pretty consistent at how i've managed to go there.. late afternoon slash early evening.. i think i'm stronger at these times.. it didn't matter how many jackasses are gonna be there or the number of poseurs or wannabees doing all sorts of stupid and crazy things.. i just go and get my lifts done and get out! the sooner the better.

since i had a long weekend, went to do squats and deadlifts on the same day. boy, did i fried my CNS! in fairness, i was strong as a bull... then earlier, my number in my 1RM with the bench was still the same, but.. my confidence with that lift had gone up! i have no more doubts of whether i can lift that weight.. it's a done deal.. next stop, two hundred thirty pounds (230 lbs).

that's a lot considering i fried my CNS the day before.. imagine if i was like well rested. it'd be awesome!

meanwhile, i gotta go sip some brandy coz i feel pretty edgy yet again... took jack3d for my pre-workout and the moment i lie down in bed, it feels weird. hmp!

one more thing, internet had been intermittent for quite sometime now, better get this fix, Smartbro people!

slurp... slurp...

rain, rain...

more rain.

no.. not complaining here. not at all.

just, uh, bit bummer when you wanna go out and well, hang out.

your gonna get wet-ty.. if there's such a word.

compared to my brah, Earl who had his time in the middle east to seek greener pasture, and all that pain-in-the-ass story about enduring the heat and not having access to potable water.. (there was water alright, but it's laden with salt... cos them people uses sea water and process it to sorta mimic what we're here enjoying, the precious H2O, which by the way is so abundant that we're literally flooding all over the place!)

i'd rather soak and bathe in the rain.. everyday.

so yeah, if i have to make a choice, i don't mind having more water than otherwise. but you better learn how to swim cos by the looks of things, water from rain isn't exactly going away anytime soon and floods all over our country as well as some parts of the world is like the "IN" thing right now.

in the meantime, as to the job front, well, the year pretty much started with a bang for me. i'm swamped with work again these days!

kinda crazy to be honest. but i gotta keep it together. it's not the best time to snap or crack. basically, it's never an option.

just roll with the punches and hope to come out still in one piece.

hope tomorrow the mini-van is out from the shop. it's been sitting there for four months. wifey was nice enough to really ran it down to its last breath, then got a new one... then, completely left the former to rot in pieces.

how nice, huh?

i can't really do all the &^$* work cos i have tons of things to do myself. she's very dependent of me about these kinda thing ya know, having the vehicle checked-up, repaired, maintenance, etc. and it's really hard to make time when i'm just as swamped with my side of life.. however, when it's stuff that makes her happy or she enjoys doing, she'd gladly go do it or tag along with whatever's making her excited.

hah!

talk about priorities, yeah?

on the lighter side,



kidz just love this!

Happy Christmas

so we just had our Christmas party last Saturday. as far as i can remember, it all went well. nothing exceptional happened.. especially with yours truly.

didn't got wasted to the point of blackout or did anything gutsy.. under the influence, anyone gets ballsy or do some of the stupidest unimaginable thing to mankind.. i should know, i had a few misfortunes like that.. heh!

for many years now, i haven't won anything major-major in the raffle draws.. seems like lady luck had been stingy with me since forever... shower me somethin', will ya!

i'm getting a lot of flak with my job these days... sadly.

i can come up with many, many valid excuses.. like how hard it is to cope-up with the increasing sales, additional branches to serve, the many people i depend with who are unreliable and how i'm doing all this single-handedly whilst all the other companies who do this kinda job have at least two people to compliment each other.. yeah, excuses.. excuses..

but nah, i could have done better. modesty aside, even with all the excuses mentioned, i can really roll with them punches.. i mean, it isn't really that hard. i just need more time and focus. maybe, a few motivation here and there. a pay hike would be the clincher. yay!

anywayz, lets see how it goes. if i feel like i can't handle the heat anymore, better get the F out of the kitchen!

to me right now, work is just a necessity to get by.. it's not something i enjoy doing anymore. in fact, if i get fired tomorrow, it would be a huge weight off of my shoulders.

you know, you slave yourself to get that desired result, but people don't see the effort behind all of it... all they see is how "easy" you come up with the conclusion.. so they go "why's it taking this long?" or "how come this is the one that came out when it's supposed to be this and that?" all the why's and the how's can really stress the shit out of you... if you take everything too seriously, ponder hard on it and take 'em to bed, you could really end up with nightmares.. LOL!

duh!

some. people.

rant off.

P.S.

since upgrading to IOS5, my iphone (3GS) had been marred with lag in loading apps.. bummer!

poseurs

i had a two day off from the gym... well, one was a needed respite, the other was just too much work. yeah, the work had been really riding me these days! it doesn't help that my effing supervisor is up my ass with pressure to get things done.. i'm actually having some kinda headache right now. ugh!

so much for that and on to my favorite subject...

another awesome shoulder workout today!

it didn't come as a surprise as i've been busting my chops to get my numbers up in doing shoulder presses. i've pretty much set a new PR (personal record) doing shoulder presses from the pins. roughly 190 pounds for a good three repetitions. i think that it had something to do with my grip strength. someone said and i agree that your ability to move the weight starts when you grip the bar. it's like when you hold the bar, you just go and picture tearing them apart. Dave Tate said something along that line and i must say, i'm a believer now of that principle.

anyway, i've pretty much gotten stronger in almost all facets of lifting.. but i'm not there yet. ya know, it's exciting and there are days that i look forward to just reaching my goal... it feels remarkable to have gotten that far and moving such amount of weight but at the same time it's frustrating when i realize i can't move any more weight cos my body, especially the CNS (central nervous system) is signalling me it's over. it is tired and exhausted and even though the mind is willing, the body has been weakened considerably.

so those are the highs and lows.

kroc rows and farmer's walk had gotten my grip stronger. they can also withstand longer use... in short, they tire a li'l longer than usual.

meanwhile, poseurs are scattered all over the gym like dog shit. hah!

you know, they must've started workin' out yesterday and today they're wearing top-tanks already. show-offs!

others look like they know their thing.. they go start bench pressin' with heavy ass weight but funny thing though, they just move the bar like a few inches off the rack. then after just 2-3 sets they go call somebody (usually, personal trainers) to help them move the weight. yeah, to sorta spot them but them PT's end up lifting the weights themselves.

i got one word for these people, LEAVE YER EGO AT THE DOOR, YA DIMWIT!

ok that's and handful, gotta a problem with that?

but, kidding aside, i use to be like that myself. these days, if i can't do it properly, i eat humble pie and lower the weights. i get better stimulation doing that and it's gotten me even more stronger.

last but not the least...

acting like busy body

mmmmmkkkayyyy. we know what happened. it wasn't exactly what most people expected, but shit happens. we won and that's all that matters... not convincingly or decisively, i guess.

shut your pie-hole ---- a win, is still a win.

i'm not gonna go and start a whole lotta discussion as to the "what's" and the "if's" like what's happening at 'em message boards and the interwebz.

it is what it is. so, stop crying your hearts out and move on.. comprende?

WORK WORK WORK!!!

i just had a really busy monday today. fyi, i'm a one-man-wrecking-machine doing all the paper works and does fieldwork to process 'em paper works. with the bulk of our sales the past few weeks, i'm also caught with a lot of documentations to process.

and i'm not even done yet!

sadly, it comes with the territory.

i failed to hit the gym today. am just gonna make it up tomorrow.

meantime, i'm hitting the sack... it's been luring me since i step foot on that cozy bedroom...

i'll see you in my wet dreams.

overtraining is overrated.

i've been having a blast in the gym lately. cardio had been "exciting." yeah baby!!

been doin' lotsa sprints and that summit trainer thang... it's a lung buster, mate!!

and then add to that the whole lotsa lifting where i try to incorporate all that reading and fuse 'em all into one helluva routine --- it's a killer!

so yeah, everything about workin' out and breakin' sweat, it's pretty covered-up and still consistent.

i'm still sore from doing some back and biceps routine yesterday... today was hamstrings. guess i overtrained yet again, huh?

***

yay!!

i got a li'l caught with 'em shebang of things... ya know, movin' some weight, work, earn that much needed moolah  and all sorts in between..

yeah, that pretty much sums up how i roll... it's too bad i'm getting predictable.. i hate it when i come to that.

i take everything as a challenge. even though work had pretty much doubled or tripled up since early this year, i'm still coping nicely. sadly, i also depend on other people and when they screw up, all that hard work i put up goes down the toilet.

i guess that's life... sometimes you wish you can do everything on your own so things gets done.

in my "business" kissing ass is the norm. no matter how pissed you are with this particular person, ya gotta be nicey-nicey... or else, something "bad" is goin' to happen.

still eight minutes left... to get my effing IOS5 update, that's what!

memba what i said about fusing 'em drafted post?


you're reading it. chiao!

effort.

hey there!

been swamped with work these days, deym!

that's why.

well, we all feel bad about Japan and i'm guessing everyone said their piece.

so, i wouldn't add more drama to a tragic, double whammy of a misfortune the Japs has suffered.. i can only wish them well.

i hope they'll be able to cope-up with the situation with all the damage, death and the impending nuke catastrophe that's about to blow over. hopefully we don't have to suffer the same.

man, i can't even begin to imagine the sufferings those guys are going through right now.

God,, help them.

on the lighter side, i've managed to solder on with my goal.. although i'm getting a little impatient.

it's not like there's no improvement whatsoever anymore - it's just exhausting.

each week, cardio had been bumped up. knees are wearing thin.. legs are sore for days.. it's not really that hard, just takes a lot of focus and determination.

probably lost lotsa fat but pretty sure, muscles too!

you can't expect to retain them unless you're "juicing" or taking lotsa supplements such as BCAA's and whatnot.

i would be selfish if i spend all my moolah over those things when there's a boatload of responsibilities to be taken cared of - first.

anyway, i realize how stupid of me before to do all that jogging or biking as it yield me no result.. why? effort. i didn't have that.

today, i've smartened up.

if you ever want to have result, you gotta put on the work. if you're doing a so-so job, expect a so-so result.

guess it applies generally to anything... of course, in my case, it's something of interest, otherwise, i'd probably just get it done just to get by or maybe to earn me a living: like my job!

hah!

going back to the workout plan, i'm planning to do cardio twice a day.. that should speed up the process a bit more.. i got a stationary bike at home. set-up the lappy up front, load some movie/s, pedal to the metal for 20 loooooonnnnggggg minutes and we're burnin' baby!

commencing in a few minutes....

i want to get away, i want to fly away..

it's new year.. it's the time of the year when people make this horrendous resolution then quit.. like, a month or two after.

i think this year is gonna be a make or break for me.. both personal and professional.

for personal, i would prefer it to break. i want separation. i want freedom. i want her out of my life.

seriously.

why, you think i'm still kidding around?

it's just fair for both of us.

i don't want her, she's gone haywire, fcuk it, LETS GO!

professionally.. hmmmmm..

i thought of quitting this year and still do.

in the meantime, i still haven't found something "golden" to warrant a bail out scheme.. so, since i still have a mountain of debts to pay, a family to feed and mucho yadi-yada that needs spending, it is but practical to stay put. besides, i surmounted quite an obstacle last year.. seem smooth on the get go when this year started.. good sign, aight?

as to the gym front, you probably thought i already quit by now, eh?

no!

i just gotten really better.. stronger.. wiser..

best of all, injury free!

so, 2010, kiss my ass goodbye!!!

2011, ya mine baby!!!

i am the walrus

whatta tight and lousy day!

wifey made sure i suck on my workout today. she had me rush to the bank to make some deposits and left me to fend for the house cos her and the rest of her posse had to go party.. on the bright side, they brought home a new microwave oven. at least, they won something.. deym, i almost forgot how that thing work. well, the one we have ain't workin' no more... for months now.

anyway, i took a leave today. i deserve a break, ya know. the thing is, my superior isn't too generous giving leaves.. approving should've been the word.

he always feel the need to swipe some nasty remark.. he probably thinks he's funny.

well, f him. unless they convert the un-use leave into cash or something tangible, i'm availing it (the leaves) even it means they'd shut down their pie-holes!

i'm pretty burnout with work these days. that explains the line.

got a few bumps that would entail a lot of work.

pretty stressful, to be honest.

makes me wanna quit pronto!

i'm just gonna sort this mess out. finish everything..

then i can cry out loud....

F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!

i'm insecured, yeah. i've got issues, right.

but as soon as i'm out, i'll stop bitching about everyone and everything that's holding me back physically and mentally, then i can soar somewhere higher than this.

this is getting redundant.

pizzing off.

flat tire

aloha!

i know i suck.. my apologies.

got tied down with a shitload of work, what else?

oh yeah, i'm still bustin' my balls in the gym, thank you.

i'm on double-split routine 'til Neil starts goin' to school next month. meaning, early morning and at evening time i'll eat iron for two straight days then chill... hmmmm.. not really, no weights, but instead, i hit the treadmill or abuse the elliptical machine.. the latter's pretty intense, tell ya that.

lotsa work stressed me out real bad this week... i practically dreamt of 'em.. it's like having a nightmare, mate.

one by one they all fall down (read: fixed) but another one pops up again.

when the dust settles, promise i'll do better in this part of place.

it's just that i'm ready to hit the sack when i'm home.. pretty much like an old fart these days... gotta get that beauty sleep, and early.

later guys, gals and gheyz.. pillow and bed calling...

ZZZzzzzzz...