the lowdown

well, whadyaknow.. i'm still kicking!

i dunno for how much longer though. my BP has gone haywire. my heart, lets just say it's been downhill for roughly three weeks now. it's definitely something to watch out for.

been to the doc a few days ago. pop a few pills. it's better but still, i'm not out of the woods yet.

monday, gonna get my ECG result and go to a specialist. a cardiologist, to be exact.

yesterday, i felt better after the visit to the doc, went to smash the weights! shoulder pressed ninety pounds for three. rest. then squeeze out six more reps with a help this time.

after a few minutes of doing presses and pulls in the gym, i felt dizzy and gassed. took off.

today, i tried do some light cardio. just walk a bit faster and inclined a tad. boy,  i felt dizzy and gassed again!

that's a stark contrast to what i can pound before doing HIIT on the treadmill at eight kilometers per hour. really, something awry is goin' on with me.

tsk.. tsk..

all that strength and power, gone in a snap!

at least three pals wanna hang out tonight. i'd love to, but i can't.

gotta heal up if i still can. i get a little anxious just thinking of the what if's.

between then and now, only the good Lord above knows.

gotta stay positive. i don't live for myself alone now. there are people whom i love and depends on me.

it's just how things in the world works.

chillin' time.

introspect

you should really take a picture when you can... they are like timelines and memories.. something you can go back on and see..

two of our "loyal" house help just left. they were under some kinda "unique" circumstance that they just have to leave. one left fifteen days ago, the other, today.

they are sisters, by the way.

i kinda feel sad when these things happen.

somehow, it feels like a family has gone abroad and the house, something's amiss.

really man, it saddens me no end.

you just have to accept the fact that in life, nothing is permanent. ya gotta cherish the time you've spent together... which is where the pictures come in.. my gosh, you see all of them happy moments and boy, i cringed!!!

how i wish we could of maintain the status qou and go on living our li'l lives. i would of be more adventurous and warm with every single people in the household.

but, nothing is permanent... change is the only reality. sucks big time, yeah?

i'm glad i'm still alive and kicking writing this post..... ya know why?

i'm on the verge of a massive something.... yep, something really BIG!

my office mate and pal, Divine, he is there somewhere... in dreamland... he is on comatose. third stage. that office mate i told you  about a few posts ago? saw him. he's not doing good.

i hope he can turn things around. his family isn't too optimistic. i could almost feel them wanting to pull the plugs off. he is still on ICU. with all them mounting bills and that grim prognosis the doc had been implying to his family, i too would rather end his suffering.

i'm not really sure where i'd stand. some office mate suggests that the family should have more faith in the good Lord above and that, in time, Divine will have a full recovery.. they just have to sustain it and burn whatever is left on their savings.

on the other hand, they could just end his suffering and you guess it, pull the plug.

we are all in quandary.

if i live another day tomorrow, it'd be like a miracle.

i am sure of that.

so, enjoy every moment you have in this world.. and make it count!

fighting....

how'd ya like to go....

random, random

am listening to Stevie Ray Vaughan's Little Wing, thus....



**

it was fun last night. thought i got hammered early on. i can tell.. when i see things differently like there's too much colors and rainbows, that's a tale tell sign. anyway, my best pal finally went with us. it was one helluva party! met a few gals along the way.. hehe

but really, didn't do anything nasty. t'was just a spur of the moment thing. somethin' about spur of the moment and being candid.. spontaneous. ya kinda get things done with it rather than contemplating and waiting.

best pal tried in vain. buddy was hammered and was just, well, waiting. i made the toast. then, we were talking...and torridly kissing like really thisclose... i can almost feel them lips all over my ears!

no, this wasn't between us boys, ya schmoe.... now's a good time to use your imagination. jeje

other than touching them hips and all that huffs in between our ears, we went our separate wasted ways in peace.

***

office mate sms late this afternoon and requested a prayer. one co-worker is in grave condition, doctor said. he is on dialysis. his kidneys had given up on him. it's crazy how he was looking fine early this week. we always made fun of each other every morning cos we're usually the early ones. we go "are you aiming for the punctuality award?"

here's hoping he recovers and gets well soon. hang in there, bud.

****

when you're face with a problem, don't run away, face it! yep, that's what i learned. especially at work when there's a lot, ya gotta man up.

i better go and really absorb above cos right now, i'm not in the pink of health and i refuse to get myself checked. instead, i opt to self medicate.

message to self: FACE PALM!

random acts of whatever, donezo!

Niggaz

oscar mike

your chances of winning in a lottery is .000001 to nil.

so you're better off betting on a cockfight or in a casino.. you'd exponentially increase your chances than betting on some lottery. unfortunately, i don't win in this kinda game. wifey is the lucky one when it comes to raffles, games and gambling. she oftentimes brings something after a party where there's raffle. we've had LCD TV, a laptop, some  cellphones, a few electronic stuff, etc. courtesy of her winnings.... a proof of how lucky she is.

so why am i talking about this? well, just recently the lottery station had been swamped with people wanting to bet on the lotto. grand prize was peg at roughly three hundred million. that's a lot! people would wanna have a piece of that, that's for sure judging from the people queuing up in droves. even i bet a few times..

some lucky folks finally hit the jackpot! good for them. hope it makes them better people and rub others with their good fortune.

***

meanwhile, thought i'd share that little "secret" i discovered in increasing my bench strength. it has something to do with how you grip the bar. i've read this a few times that when you grip the bar, you kinda want to bend it. so there. i experimented with how i place it on my palms. when i thought i finally got it, the bar just travels to its supposed trajectile rather nice and easy.

i got excited today and as useless, err, i mean as usual, got carried away! my shoulders are burning hot with all that lactic acid! just tore myself apart real good.

my li'l baby is all over me right now... buzzin' off!!

stay frosty

i can't put a finger to it but i know my body is in the shitters right now.

i have an awful lot of idea what's bugging it, but i'll keep it to myself.

we was gonna get hammered last night... however, i have to excuse myself cos wifey had a fever. besides, getting hammered on weekdays is a bad, bad idea. one, i have to wake up early cos Neil rides with me off to school. and, i don't wanna be absent at work on weekdays cos there's a lot of things to do or watch out for.

this whole lotta drinking, this is the reason why i can't get the most out of my workout. all those calories and alcohol.. what about alcohol, you ask? they screw your brain cells nicely so that each bout of 'em, you lose a bit of 'em cells here and there.

it's also worth mentioning that them alcohol elevates the darn estrogen, that female hormones, so that instead of getting testosterone laden, i get the opposite compound. sucks, eh?

going back to work, seems the dust finally settled. after that "windfall," we're getting steady. nothing extra-ordinary. well, we all could use a break.

that's all i can say about that.

chi-chao!

*cough* *cough*

sneeze.....

don't ya pressure me!!

i can't think straight!!!!

F-O-C-U-S.

ahhhh... the holy grail of bench pressin' baby.. found it!

i've read about it when Dave Tate mentioned it in one of his e-book but didn't really took the time to test it. i'm too used to what i've been doin' for eons. but, something's wrong. my bench strength hadn't gone up for a while now.

and that's why it's important to always be reminded because we people, we easily forget. yeah, you too! when was the last time you ate at KFC? you don't remember, dontcha?

i thought so.

i've seen all sorts of techniques and read all sorts of discipline and philosophy.

today, i got down and tweaked my technique accordingly.

i reckon i did a stellar good. it was lightweight, baby!

shoulder could use some icin'...

with ageing comes wisdom... can i go back in time with all these "tools"?

wouldn't it be awesome, huh?!?

rain and fever.

that's what had been hounding us these days.

Neil had a fever a few days ago. mine, it's ongoing. hope it stops with me. however, since it's the season of La Niña, we're gonna have to suck it up.

in as much as i wanna post s'more of my boring shez, i don't wanna rub you of my "down" time, and i meant that literally.

it'd be nice to have a bike like the one above... wait..

so many things are going on but it's a bit crazy as of late...

i don't even know where to start.

worst, i got home freakin' late cos it's raining heavy since afternoon.

workout late too!

it was awesome though.

guess i'm gonna have to write all of 'em thoughts tomorrow when the dust settles...

hold your breath.

no easy d-day

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looks like someone had a rude welcome at the gym earlier. i wasn't really mindful of others... bad, bad me!

some guys, two of them were new, obviously. well, i've been rotating my time in the gym so i have no clue whose who cos i go when i'm ready and good to go. no specific time whatsoever. anyway, did some decline dumbbell press. this lift is something i'm really good at. not many in my gym can pull this one with the one hundred pounder dumbbells. so there, after doing my set, there's no way around it but to drop it.

one guy was beside me. THUD!!! the new guy was standing next to my bench. he seem to be lookin' weird at me and the dumbbells... i just went ahead and do s'more pressing.. didn't know what happened really until the PT (personal trainer) guy told me, "that dude was shocked as hell when you drop the weight!!"

i go "really?!?"

"he doesn't know you yet and he's a newbie so he's not aware of how things goes around here."

"sorry." that's all i can say albeit, embarrassed.

it's no wonder they were gone a few minutes after that incident.

so, that's my story of the day.

chill.

good.

windfall... who doesn't want one, huh?

i must admit, we're kinda having that right now.. we're selling like hotcake! how ya like that?!?

a stark contrast when you compare it to the first and second quarter of this year. that's the reason why work is really UP and i mean waaaayyy UP than it was the last time.

anyway, we're kinda built for this... we, human? yeap. we have the ability to adapt. it's up to us to get our shez together, or crack.

your choice.

it's kinda fulfilling that after all that gruesome and bloody audit last week in our submitted documentations, we emerge unscatched. not only that, we beat other local dealers who has several people working in my kinda job. they were ordered to pay surcharges and under-collections of their previous payments. ugh!

some kinda feather on our cap, yeah?!?

eat that suckers!!!

joke.

all the glory to the good Lord above.

i know people who stop believing in God and instead believe on themselves. i have my questions and doubts of His existence myself. some people would laugh at you for still believing in God. forgive them.

i can't even begin to fathom the depth of all of these things.

one thing i can be sure of, whenever i'm trapped in a foxhole and there's no way out, i would call on His name and boy, the peace and that assurance that He will deliver me from my troubles... it's really something you can't find in this world.

so yeah.. i'm here cos of Him.

where??!??

Last Goodbye....

lovely.

work, work work!

there's no escaping work this week.

no way to outsmart it. if it's right up your face and shoved on your throat, gotta work or bust!

that was unexpected. thanks to the good Lord above, it is over and we pulled through.

guess the cockiness on my last post was tested this week. if i didn't do the smart thing before, i would have had a hard time dealing with our compliance issue.

anyway, the long weekend, thanks to the two-day holiday, is coming soon. i'll take that as my reward hehe!

hope my li'l brotha is having a grand time out there whilst celebrating his birthday... our former nanny and them families, who lives in that flood-stricken part of Manila, may their situation improve also.. watching the news is really stressful these days considering how difficult their predicaments are.

it is how it is. we just have to roll with it and hope to come out on top.

cha ching!!!

sm@rt@ss

my, my..

this evening workouts has taken a toll on my sleep pattern. it's been days since i've been having sleeping problem!

had some solid thoughts earlier.. as useless, it got caught in the wind, damn! i bet if i think hard enough i could remember..

oh yeah, some people work really hard. nothing wrong with that except that it's stressful. i know a few people who do and they barely play.. it's all work, work, work.

my job, it requires a lot of working hard. i know a lot of people in my line of work who quit or gone rouge on the company they work for. they could not handle the stress.

most of them work in tandems. it's the best set-up. one takes care of the office work, the other goes out to the field to transact or process the documents.

i have managed to stay on this job for years and still can afford to "play" like workout or just chill... you know how i do it?

it's the smart.

i adhere to that saying that goes "work smart not hard."

even though i'm the only one who does everything, i got it all figured out, thanks to the good Lord above.

my system is pretty simple. i had a trainee a few months back. he's gonna be assigned to another branch and boy did he had a hard time grasping my way of doing things. he had some foul-ups along the way because he could not follow simple instructions.

and another principle i really, really like - K.I.S.S.

no, not the make out one you horny punk!

it's Keep It Simple, Stupid.

you'll accomplish more things by getting down to the basics.. when you complicate matters, you'll end up with nothing.

my son, Neil likes to complicate things. he's being philosophical as of late and i go, why are you having a hard time figuring things out, it's not rocket science?

it's the generation gap. i know.

anyway, i have to make an impression to him. ya know, give him the proper tools so that when he's all grown up, he would rather choose the path that's best for him. if i've been through that road before and i know it ain't good for him, i'd tell him.

he's a good boy though. he listens. if i would compare myself to him before when i was at his age, he is definitely way, way better than me. but, there's a good reason why we're not at par... it's something i would rather forget.

pep talk is over, i feel drowsy now thanks to GrandMa.

ciao!

24

cardio suffered a minor setback. just pushed it a little too much on the treadmill doing sprints and, it happened. calves gave in.. muscle cramped. it's been four days and the sting of the pain is still there. oh well.

will just have to work around it. there's still other cardio equipment that i can use that won't aggravate the area. shit happens.

**

went out again to party-party last friday night. my pal was in cruise mode and just let it all hang loose. i, on the other was pretty uptight.. dunno why.

as usual we got smashed. him had too much though. he practically forgot what went down on the latter part of the night whilst i remembered everything.

he dunno how he broke a chip of his front teeth. i remembered him dancing and gyrating like he's auditioning to some dancing show.. haha!

lesson learned: keep it together and never lose a grip of yourself.

***

why is it important to have ETA? so that you don't let people left hanging. in the corporate world, it's important to make projections, assessments and planning. a customer said to me once, "i just want to know exactly when cos i don't want it to be open-ended."

imagine if all people would make an open-ended projection, we'd be stuck in limbo for a long, long time.. "we'll just inform you." how about "i'll just text."

so now i appreciate when Jack Bauer said something along the lines of "what's your ETA?"

something to ponder about today, huh?

ya better run!

the internet had gone berserk again.. going on and off for days. sucks!

anyway, bought Neil a new guitar. plays really nice... and expensive! when sister had a vacation a few months ago, she bought him one. after a few months, he's gotten really good at it.. pretty much beat me on some tunes! his guitar tho, well, it's quite worn out now. but still playable.

this new one, it's more than twice expensive but plays twice better too! i kinda enjoy playing guitar again. Neil would most likely surpass me, my li'l bro, Alan (who plays flawless guitar!) and my buddy, Earl. he's just fourteen and he's playing cool tunes now. he's got some good licks and plucking too! to think he's just playing for almost three months now.. he'd probably beat John Mayer when he's fully grown up.

***

work volume had gone up considerably these days. it's a good thing i've set-up a some sorta system so that no matter how huge of a sale we make, it's all go on my end.

*****

been able to run a tad longer now. then, on HIIT, i'm scaling back to the speed i used to kill before. hope to keep it up... it's not all roses to tell you frankly.. but, it's getting better.

better post this before the effing connection goes off again!