check your pride

love this....



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how's the weather in your part of the world?

it's been chillin' like a villain these days around here...

it's taking a toll in some members of the family.. me included.

work is, uhm, complicated... to borrow the word from what site was that?? hah!

yep. i've been getting a lot of heat lately. too much backlogs on practically everything. can you blame me?

when we began we sold around twenty units per month.. now, we're up to sixty. that's excluding the other branches. Tacloban was giving good numbers but we know what happened, they got wipeout.

and, i'm still doing these things all by myself!

i have no complains really... just as long as they don't rush me to produce everything all at once. my boss isn't too understanding.

one more shit from him and i'm goin' to a grand vacation.

we'll see what happens next.

i know about that "no one is indispensable" thing, so don't lecture me about it.

it's gonna be hard losing a job at this juncture. i mean, whose gonna hire a forty year old man other than call centers, eh?

but it doesn't matter. sometimes, you just have to go out there and throw yourself into the sea. i mean, i've been busting my ass for this company for almost fifteen years... two years before that, i was also working for them but with a different brand.

i'd like to try some freedom from them and do my own thing. i don't know if i still have anything left in the tank that can turn things around.

i can't be thankful enough to them. i've learned and grow a lot and at the same, it allowed me to put food on the table for my family.

anyway, i don't look forward to that day, but it's best to be prepared.

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so, Biggest Loser is back in the office. i've ballooned a lot since the last time we did it. although i gain a lot of muscles, fat is all over the place as well.

i can't be thankful enough for my office mates who reboot this contest. it just puts me into that page again where i'm really focus and that determination to win, though the feeling is tiring.... but it's AWESOME!

especially if you start buckling your belt and there's that hole that inches forward as days go by.. until you're in the last punctured part of your belt.. WOW. it's good!

best part is, i can run again. been doin' a little sprint and walk (HIIT) cardio in the treadmill and boy, does it just fry your fats out.

wifey is also into running, her latest passion. i'm just waiting for the right time so i can run with her early in the morning. don't expect me to beat her anytime soon. she's been joining fun runs since last year and is a top three to five finisher.

i have this new gym gear called FatGripz. i got the extreme variant where the diameter really mimics or perhaps even thicker than fat bars. U.S.A. has a lot of 'em fat bars. here however, i haven't seen one yet. perhaps a rarity.

so far it's been good. my forearms are fried long before i could get into the top weight. it definitely offers variety and to a certain extent, challenge. you should try it sometimes to know exactly what i mean.

it's nice to yack s'more, however, bed is calling.

chi-chao!

I Can..

WOW! it's been what, forever?

yep, got caught up with a lot of things. like a lot.

the work had been nothing but...

about two month ago(?), i've been holdin' office upstairs. we have this renovation going and it's taking eons!

so, what happened? about three or four departments had been fused all together. we are all shacked up in one big room. nice, huh? boy, it's been HELL.

most of these are ladies... and LOUD. my ears are bleeding!

thank God for earphones. but even then, it's still a pain in the ass. it's like listening to degenerates.. i feel dumber each day that passes.

and the renovation isn't gonna finish soon either... thus, i'm stuck with the loudmouths! it's soooo annoying, man.. i hope we can move back to where we've been..

**

my older brother whose been on rehab for almost a couple of years is back with us. good to see him making improvements.. big ones!

i hated him when i was younger for all the stupid things he pulled. but now, i have nothing but love for him. it's good to have a brother around the house. even my elder half sister is with us now. the house she's been staying since her childhood days had been sold. she's got nowhere to go, so she's here. like i have a choice, huh?!

anyway, we're one, big, quirky family now! what's really odd about this whole arrangement is, both of my siblings aren't married, my wife's brother is just as single.. even my older sister abroad is still single too!

here's hoping for the best!

**

speaking of sister, big sister is coming home this year. we're all excited. our nanny and her nephews (daughters of my dearly departed nanny) are also coming over. they've been residing in Manila for years now. they aren't exactly, ya know, well off there but they'd rather be there so sister's bringing them here for some RnR.

another thing to be excited of are the presents.. hehe.. little brother had been asking about our sizes. he always buys the good stuff.. sister's kinda cheapskate on stuff, but when it comes to goodies, she brings it.

**

workout had been so-so. i was gonna start running.. do some interval training but had an unfortunate mishap. i was at the mall to buy some compression shorts for my grand plan - run around IT Park after office hours. while walking to the parking lot, i stumbled on some hump.. all because i was looking at this dog the guard was walking around. i fell hard on my right knee.

boy, i couldn't care less about the embarrassment. the pain was almost unbearable!

iced it after arriving home. next day, deadlift some three hundred pounds. stupid! i thought it's nothing cos i can bend my knees. next thing i know, it just swelled like there's a small ball stuck inside my knee. i could not bend it anymore. fcuk me!

t'was a nightmare.

could hardly walk but managed to get inside the bathroom. good thing i got some guy to buy me some ice and iced the area for an hour.

for almost a month now, haven't done any leg exercise.

this week, i managed to walk in the treadmill and do some stationary bike. at least it's healing up.

**

Sinulog's comin' up. my pal who shares my namesake will have a party at his house a day before the festivities. he does it annually... what usually happens is, i get hammered the night before and i don't get to go out the next day.

it's gonna be more fun now cos we have this new pal who came out of nowhere and is a mighty made guy. if you're familiar with the Italian mob, you know what a made guy is.. otherwise, google is your friend!

if i have it my way, i don't really mind not going anywhere. i'm pretty set at home with all the fun stuff i managed to amass... that is, modesty aside.

but, it's also nice to go out , let your hair down, loosen up, get wasted with your pals. although you scorch a few brain cells, you get to stimulate it at the same time.

so, lets say, we'll just roll with the punches.

**

anyone seen that awesome movie, Lone Survivor movie yet? very nice!

i don't know about you but i'm sleepy, tired and bored... so, 'til next year?

still kicking... love the song, by the way!



what can i say, i'm an 80's kid..

why dontcha?

awsome...

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i'm on a roll.. i know.

well, before this thought escapes my toasted brain cells, here goes my little epistle tonight.....

i have two groups of friends. well, one isn't part of this group. he happens to be my best pal.

anyhoo, this first group are my friends from work and we go a long way back. they are now former office-mates of mine.

we still hangout once in a while. it's definitely more fun in this crew.

the other, well, they are my wifeys friend's hubbies.

this crew is just as cool but are more on the serious side.. obviously, you can't let your guard down when you know the wifeys are hanging out together with us.

anyway, so what's the point?

well, nothing really.

i sorta just wanna put them out in here. i rarely have friends cos i'm quite picky. worst, i prefer to be alone most of the time unless there's an "adventure" worth risking it all. i mean, yeah. there's still that "all or nothing" attitude left in me.

even my son Neil feels alluded with my style. i can't blame him really. i wish i'd be more outgoing and sociable. it is what it is. you can change your skin but what's inside your heart, it remains. i think my bro and my sister at some degree have this loner characteristic in them.

we hang out last Saturday with the fun group. it's been over a month or two since we last saw each other. as usual, we never run out of stories and stuff to talk about. i thought we were done with the half full of whisky but then my other pal whip out a half empty whisky! damn, dude?!?

and then, we gulped the beers in can 'til this pal yet again pulled another trick off his bag. some drink i don't know what but we sipped on it anyway.

good thing my other pal who brought along his wife who happens to be our ex-office-mate also kept prodding him to hit the road already cos right around this time, we were on the brink of being of out of it. lights out, baby!

so, there goes my little episode for tonight. too gleeful it's a holiday tomorrow!!

peace out.

i LOLed!

was commenting yesterday about this scandal and found out my comment was included in the write up today. it's kinda nice the writer took notice of what i said.. jokingly, of course.

it's for you to find out....

Redemption

tonight, i got the last laugh.

well, i had some doubts and apprehension going to the gym tonight. tired from work and possibly a DOM (google is your friend!) from a previous workout.

not only that, while negotiating to park in the open parking area, there wasn't any vacant space. going out, still undecided 'til i reached back to the main road. if i turn right, it's home. left, i go back and try to park in the covered area.

did the latter. ample space. no more excuses.

saw this turk guy who is really jacked and effing strong. i've always thought i'm stronger but every time we bump in the gym, either i'm always at the tail end of my workout or de-loading... meaning, he sees me doing pussy lifts.

in short, i wasn't too impressive.

so when i saw him walk inside the gym, i go "i will outlift you tonight bro" on my mind.

while i was lifting the 100lb dumbbells (DB's) doing decline press, he stared intently. he probably think i was gonna struggle with it. t'was hard but i made it. then shoulder press the 95 pounder DB's... check. deadlift almost 400lbs.

he can bench 200lbs alright. also seen him do the 100lb DB bench press. but he can't beat me with the shoulder press as well as the deadlift. i didn't even squat yet!

lesson to be learned here: don't get too cocky. you think you're the best, but someone out there is better than the best. for cryin' out loud, he's probably juicing for all i care. this right here bud is nothin' but organic.

i have better stories but too lazy to think or post 'em all. worst, SmartBro came up with this stupid and downright unfair smart bro fair usage policy wherein they'll be happy to cap your internet speed if you reached a certain bandwidth use. sucks!

anyway, ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Hayley Williams is the BOMB!

i wrote somethin' today. a lot! but too exhausted to continue... post it later... goodnight..

everything

not the goofy video... it's the song..

DUD

yep, nothing but DUD!

thought i'd write somethin' awesome. sadly, i easily succumb to pressure.

here's how it works: if i get pressured, i tend to crack.

shayt, that's quite an admission.

are you disappointed?

i am.

yeah, yeah.... as always..... i have all these great stories and i usually end up with nothing!

life is good... fantastic!

take everything.

good or bad, it's gonna mold ya into somethin' great someday.

that's the hope, so i say.

i am grinding my teeth right now cos i've got zilt to offer..

when i'm done with all of 'em circus, i'm gonna go spill it out before i get amnesia.

cha-ching!!

am raring to write something... it's gonna be of epic proportion..

so, hold on.. fasten your seatbelt... buckle up.... it's gonna be awesome, dude!!!

"oh man!!!"  my little girl mutters.. her favorite expression, by the way.

yeah, i'm being forward. as always. heh!

we'll see.

ain't goin' down without a fight.

full retard.

this made me missed my dirt bike...



i'll get one again someday...

on the bright side though, i got a nice weekend ride.. hah! or... i get to use it when it's raining. normally, i drive my badass xrm motard 125er. it's freakin' fast if you have to ask even if it only have a 125cc engine.

had some top secret mods done to it..

anyway, life is soooo much different now. guess it comes with age and all that level up thingy.

it's black and white.. good and bad.. part of the grand scheme of things. what else? goes with the territory.

ugh! it's crazy how this journey had been. i wish my life would've been less complicated. on a second thought, how's your life? are you making a difference in this world? are you making your life count?

yeah, i ask those questions myself... if there'd ever be a time where my life would be exemplary.

only God know.

my baby's here... ya know what's gonna happen next, aight?

my favorite....



i wanna play it.. Neil too!

.. to play it like i/he means it...

what doesn't kill you, only makes you....

if i wasn't doing anything like, uhm, being jobless, i'd write like i mean it! hah!

but, this is reality. i'm just gonna swing by from time to time and post whatever i fancy... like, to be precise.

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thoughts
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got

You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talkin' in defense

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

So Don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different date
And if you don't give up, and don't give in
You may just be O.K.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

I wasn't there that morning
When my Father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

Say it loud, say it clear
Say it loud
Don't give up
Don't give in
And don't know what you can do next

for lack of better things to say.....