rain.. gently falls..
gawd, it's been raining on and off today.. as of the moment, it's been really on for hours now.
good for those who had planned in advance for their Valentine's whatever tonight.. somewhere dark, cold and cozy..
wet?
wonder where's that??
cinema!
yeah-yeah i'm bored.
i wanna smoke.. hhhmmmm.. it's been over three years. there are days that i thought of puffing one whenever i smell some guy/s in the gym smellin' nicotine, but after seeing them doin' a so-so workout, nah.
i dreamt about breaking the cycle and huff a stick or two only to wake up in great relief that it was just it - a dream.
once i do one, there'd be another.. and another.. next thing i knew, i'm hooked again!
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if my friends are wondering why i haven't registered to our own little forum somewhere, the answer is in the idiom: "once bitten, twice shy."
yeah, that one we had a year (?) or two ago was one helluva ride... but got shut-down without any advance notice whatsoever, took the thunder out of me.. i mean, i treated that little place like my baby.. though everything is smooth between us all now, the scar is still there and i wouldn't feel secured after posting lotsa good and bad shit that it'll stay that way.. i wouldn't wanna speak for the others but i'm sure they have their own little issues, but i'm hoping for the best... ya know, that it'll eventually go BIG in every facet, and the owner would really think a million times before wiping it off cyberspace... yet again.
the worst part, the other hangout we had was demolished.. by guess who? no less than the government itself.. no effort was made to revive it to think that it's "the powers that be" were behind it.. well, it's a venue where people complains and air their greivances... calls the attention of people who abuse their power/s.. etc.. etc.. ya don't wanna have any of that, do ya?
i wouldn't be surprise if it'll be back again later this year or next year... a very good place to make "promises" again and campaign for the near election.. ahhhh life!
so predictable and boring.
so there. i got bitten twice, homs.. whaddya expect? i'm just gonna roll over, go back to square one and say, hit me baby one more time??!!
dunno bout the others but i've been skimming through the new sites.. it's deafining.. cos it's friggin' quiet out there.
we all got burned, baby.
burned.
or we could all be busy in these trying times.
anyhoo, it's still raining and i'm running out of craps to blab.
oh, it's rest day today. i need to. my strong shoulder which is my left is feeling funny. well, it's pre-determined.. tomorrow, i should be waxing hot again.
good Lord, i love the rain... but can you please pause for an hour so i could drive home already??
i really miss my kiddo, Neil.
Happy Hearts Day, babe.
