the three stooges - episode I

we don't go out on fridays anymore, but.. we did last week.


my ex-office mate invited another ex, and the latter invited me. it was fun! we had our usual poison of choice - red horse beer (explains why i'm bulging like a balloon).


this ex-office mate is my drinking and smoking buddy back then when he was still employed at my workplace. we would smoke very often and drink almost, like, everyday! so, when he was given the pink slip, he found work at some call center and met new friends and all.. we barely hangout anymore. i guess he got caught up with some pals that are really at his level of ya know, highly sociable kinda people. he sorta spent more time with his work and his new found friends and eventually we've taken different roads.


this other pal with whom i often hang with during weekends, well, we did have our own little "issues". i've wrote about it here sometime ago. only this january did we started to hook-up again after over a year of ex-communicado. lol!


it's always been my nature to wait and not start, ya know, yapping "what's up?" and "how's life?" i mean, i do miss the good ol' days but it's different now. we all have our families and if we don't hang out, i just channel my energy somewhere else close. like my kids, the dogs, etc.

{i've got four minutes to finish this episode and hope to continue tomorrow}


anyway, we had a good laugh, as always! we talk a lot things and boy, this dudes, their lives are really taking off.. i mean, they talk about vacations and stuff.. going abroad! geez man, i haven't been out of the country since........... birth!


so there.


time is up.

life is..

no matter what i do, no matter how fun it went, when comes down do it, i'm still not happy.

yep, that's how it is with the world. worldly thing to be exact.

if you go examine yourself and really, really ponder on things in life, what you achieved, how much wealth you've managed to amass and all that, honestly, were you able to quench your thirst? were you satisfied? are you really secured? underneath the core of your very being, can you HONESTLY say that you are happy? do you have JOY in your heart?

only you can answer that.

anyway, that's a li'l deep to tackle at the moment so.. i'll leave you to ponder on that.

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finally, the mini-van we have that's been sitting on the garage and rotting in rust had a taker. we had it for sale for months now but opted to halt it when sister arrived so we could use an alternative transpo when the other is being used to accompany her when she's out and about.

i kinda feel sad to see it go but at the same time, i'm worried that the longer it's sitting there, the less it's gonna get dispose. although i use it every weekend just so it could run around and warm up the engine and stuff, it's quite unreliable after all the deterioration it has gone through.

i hope the new owner can do a better job at maintaining that car. i know wifey didn't.

we did had a lot fun time with that cage.. it's pretty fast for a little van. i believe it's the fastest in its class. for one, it's a Subaru, it's an all-wheel drive and best of all, it's turbo-charged!

i'd love to talk about work and training... but, gosh, i'm just not syncing right now.

someday... someday...

i want to get away, i want to fly away..

it's new year.. it's the time of the year when people make this horrendous resolution then quit.. like, a month or two after.

i think this year is gonna be a make or break for me.. both personal and professional.

for personal, i would prefer it to break. i want separation. i want freedom. i want her out of my life.

seriously.

why, you think i'm still kidding around?

it's just fair for both of us.

i don't want her, she's gone haywire, fcuk it, LETS GO!

professionally.. hmmmmm..

i thought of quitting this year and still do.

in the meantime, i still haven't found something "golden" to warrant a bail out scheme.. so, since i still have a mountain of debts to pay, a family to feed and mucho yadi-yada that needs spending, it is but practical to stay put. besides, i surmounted quite an obstacle last year.. seem smooth on the get go when this year started.. good sign, aight?

as to the gym front, you probably thought i already quit by now, eh?

no!

i just gotten really better.. stronger.. wiser..

best of all, injury free!

so, 2010, kiss my ass goodbye!!!

2011, ya mine baby!!!

'Tis the Season

well.. well..

Merry Christmas!!

belated, yeah.

my Christmas wasn't exactly the way i want it to be.. i wanted it to be quiet. no fuss.. no visitors (bwisitors to be precise), no videoke.. no loud bangs, bangs..

ya know, simple.

i'm not a relative of The Grinch, but yeah, i kinda find it hard to be on a 'celebrating' mode when lotsa people's got no food on their table.

but they won't have it tho. them wifey and her baggages.. go figure!

long story, short - i was bored.

anyway, Christmas is ain't about me, you or anybody else but Christ.

so, Happy Birthday, Jesus!!!

~~~

meanwhile, it's almost New Year.. i still feel the same.. to keep it simple.

no big bangs of firecrackers which by the way, lotsa kids suffered mishaps last Christmas eve.

kids.. kids.. they're getting out of control these days. i mean, whatever happened to them, huh?

i'm speaking as a parent having a first-hand experience. it's not like i can look for my son the whole time cos i gotta bust my chops out there so i can feed this family.. having a "career" wife just makes it worst. she just don't have that motherly nurturing my kids need.

the baby is now one and she spends more time with her yaya (babysitter) than her mah... wifey's like she's just gotten out the cage or off the leash that she's on a roll having fun most of the time spending more time with her friends even on weekends... sigh.. whatta predicament, yeah?!?

i can't blame her entirely.. since time immemorial, i've been content spending time indoors than go out.. well, i've done all (almost, i guess) sorts of crazy things saved for bungee jumping and skydiving, so i kinda lost that zest for adventure.. not to mention, i gotta stay in one piece cos i can't think for myself anymore as now many people depend on me.

the only time i get to risk a bit or do some stupid shit, albeit controlled, is when i'm in the gym.

otherwise, i'm too careful... driving, drinking or just plainly going through the day. i barely socialize or go out with friends... there were plenty of parties and invites when december came in, i opted not to expound whenever the subject is discussed.

if you've been reading the news, so many unfortunate things happened outside cos people these days are getting more crazy and daring.

besides, i'm not getting any younger.

so, i'm either right or i've become withdrawn and/or boring.

anyhoo, i think i've posted long enough, yet i still have more shiz to spill later on.. my brain is about to explode so i'd rather zip it.

MAN-UP!!

thought of sooooo many things to say.. i haven't collated everything. sucks, huh?

yeah it does.

anyway, my personal life's in disarray.. it might not look like it, but it does. work, as always sucks.. got a few things that needs immediate action or it'll blow over.

i'm prepared for the worst though.

home... ahhhhh home... these guys and gals can't get things done without being told how to do about it.. well, they do get things done only that they kinda suck along the way.

they suck literally. ya know, they can't even help putting food on the table, worst part is, they don't know how to conserve... they can practically drain our resources in a short span of time.. talk about days.. shit, these folks are animals... i can't even begin to enumerate the what's and the how's.

not to mention, some are a real pain in the ass.. they just know where to push your buttons.. well, most of the time, i don't mind 'em.

they can keep their miserable shits to themselves... i'll go on live my life.

today, tomorrow and for the rest of my life, i promise myself one thing.. and one thing only.. that is, to MAN-UP.

i can't worry about everyone else' issues.. if i do, it'll just drag me down.. na-ah!

no way never.. bitching about other's issues won't lead me anywhere but down.. stuck!

so yes, i won't worry my life away.. maybe a tad.

guess, i'm born like that...

set a new PR this week.. i finally flat bench press the darn 100 pound dumbbells for five repetitions! that took forever, yeah?!

that was my promise to myself that before the year ends, i should conquer the darn thing.. and i have..

my deadlift went up 180 kgs for one rep... not bad for an old timer, eh?!

lets sing together now..

somethin' somethin'

busy.

yep. trying to figure out life.

you can call that, uhm, mid-life crisis. ha ha!

it's pretty weird, actually... how the heck did i come this far and haven't done much with me's and other's life???

or am i just forgetful??

shit.

trying to make sense here...

well, i could've made a choice.

risk a little bit more.

took a decisive approach.

but i always choose the easy route.

yeah, i said it before and i'm sayin' it again - i hate to stressed myself out!

i haven't really gone out with so much zest for anything.

mediocre is an understatement.

i. suck.

so i'm hard on myself... yeah, i needed that!

on the other side of the spectrum, i'm great.

how? by busting my chops.. now, i need to reverse that... uhm, maybe balance it out.

keyword: work harder.

lets see if these tough words translates into action.


meanwhile, will you watch this??




word: boring.

come together now

hey yo!

took a leave today... what can i say, i oversleep, dam'it!

the culprit? it's the darn brandy!

i got carried away..

sipping my poison while watching the pictures of my former officemates who had since went on their separate ways, i felt nostalgic.. wow, it's almost surreal.. it'll be my 10th year this year working for the same old company that my boss' started with me and a handful of gals and guys on-board as a pioneering employee..

now, we've grown leaps and bounds.. like we have branches all over the place.. many had come and go, but here i am, still standing among the few who were there from the get go.

why i'm still here? read back, honey!

guess i miss a lot of things... my former forum-mates, the guys i've worked with before, the beach, my brothers, a sister, my late ma and pa... hhhmmmmm.. i can go on forever.

lights out.

twisted

been really busy doin' boatload of other things... thus.

got lotsa thoughts running through my head, but just couldn't gather 'em back for this.. sooo shet, eh??



ooooppps!!!

i'll get back to ya when i'm finally able to pick up my garbled brain... it's scattered all over the place.. like dog *toooooot*

"holy week" is coming up.. start cleansing ya self, homie!

oh, before i go, at 10:00 tonight, there's another activity some chump thought the children of the future would appreciate... save oxygen!

it's easy actually. when the clock hits 10, you just need to hold your breath for, get this, an hour, momma! can you sacrifice an hour to preserve that much needed H2O which could, at the rate we pollute our air these days, save our children from oxygen deprivation?




go figure!

checking out.

live another day

sniff.. sniff..

i'm not feeling well.

i think i'm gonna die real soon.

i'm not kidding.

ok, i hope i'm wrong... i do wanna live a li'l longer..

makes me appreciate life.. cos i haven't stop to "smell the flowers... "

it's all been about what i can get my hand into... no depth.. no excitement.. no sense of adventure.. hhhaaaaahhhhh... breath...

i dunno... life's got it's way giving you some sorta sick sense of humor... no, it ain't the good Lord..

but life.

we've been given the freedom.. to choose what's right and wrong.. freewill, anyone?

yah, you got it by default.

wish it wasn't that way... uhm, lemme rephrase it: wish i didn't have it.. ya know, freewill? let the good Lord decide what's good for me... life would have been easier, yeah?

anyhoo, hope to live another day... cos from where i'm sitting at... doesn't look good.

you did remember i posted about me having congenital heart disease from way back when, right?



no?

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