whoa there!!!

yeah, i got a li'l carried away doin' my thang ya know.

i'll be back soon.

oh yeah, got me a new dog! a Rottweiler!

the fucker is badass!! like he bites?!? yeah.

one year old and was given up by the owner cos he bit some guys and gals at home. shit.

anyway, more news and pictures (perhaps) later. too much distraction.. gotta go.

chill.

May 21

crazy how i got here and facing a black wall.. yeah, i had all these thoughts whilst away from the keyboard and now that i'm here *poooof!!!* gone.

hah!

i guess you can i say i'm kinda lame.

that's one reason why i appreciate people who speak with so much zest in them.. so much life that they kind of not go tired, somewhat.. where'd ya get all that energy, huh?

is it a personality thing or how you're brought up... in your genes, hormones, breed?

i like them people but i also appreciate the "cool cats."

y'know, the James Dean kinda people.. pretty laid back. i'm torn between these personalities.

what i'm really trying to drive home is this: does our being "US" has something to do with our breed, genetics, race, etc.. or is it our destiny to be born this way (no, Lady Gaga had nothing to do with this line of thought, btw)???

it's nice to see the other side of the spectrum.. ya know, discover, learn and adapt.

is it possible that some people who are positive and radiates good vibration more likely to get more out of life than those who're easily content with whatever they've got? what if they were taught to think this way growing up?

isn't it a wonder that some people have all the luck while others couldn't catch a break? some are just too down and out they'd rather kill themselves than go on with life...

see those kids out there off the streets begging? see those kids who were born with a golden spoon? even those aren't too well off.. look at them 10 years from now. some gets better, others worst.

anyway, i'd like to think everything gets better in time.. i know. i saw it.

May 21 is almost over. the world didn't end. even if it did, we'd all be together with whatever's forthcoming. so yeah, whatever. why worry about the inevitable?

thoughts to ponder.

reminiscing...

OMG!

yeah, it's like that as of late for me. lotsa WORK to do and it's got to be done even if i don't feel well.

Neil is doin' some summer schooling. basketball. so, some personal goal has to be sidelined.

another reason why i can't stick to a fixed workout schedule. cardio is now a rarity. sigh.

gotta get back to work now.

still swamped with work, deym!

hope to get things done this week..

had a pretty lousy four weeks now. still plateaued at pretty much everything. shit!

had a few drinks here and there.. well, gotta have a life outside family, work and gymin'.. though i'd prefer if things are routinary.. it keeps my sync otherwise i'd be out of the swing of things.

tried different hours in the gym.. pretty much rotate the time. the once i haven't got into is the 8-10pm slots. i wanna know how i'd fare in that time, strength-wise.

gonna try to sneak in some cardio in the early morning. it's a must. non-negotiable. gotta do. kinda thing.

problem with evenings has something to do with the pre-workout cocktail i take.. it's laden with caffeine and most likely i'd be chugging shizload of H20 which means too many trips to the comfort room whilst i'm asleep.. that is, if i could even sleep considering the facts mentioned above.

i'd love to chat s'more but my little baby is all over me.. it's an ordeal to focus at this time. LOL!

out and about.

wait... i'm still thinking what to write.

right now i'm still overwhelm.

swamp with work, i guess.

it's also worth mentioning someone earnestly wanted to rain on my parade.

i have to shift..

it has to be done and the contemplation has begun.

arrrgghhh!!! my quads hurt.. i almost fell from the treadmill earlier.

all this crap is getting me out of sync.

but it's cool.. keepin' it together..

goodnight.

why? why? why?

people has to be somewhere during this time of the year, holy week?

some had to be in the beaches or some place where there's lotsa party's happening like beaches.. did i mention beaches?

yeah.

i don't know about them, my wife and son included, but in this time of the year we ought to pray.



i know, i know.. i'm not holier than thou..

me however, i'm chillin' like a villain - at home.

for some it's boring at home.. i'm not bored at all. if anything, i look forward for this rest.. recharge my batteries.. regroup.

anywho, it's summer so anytime this season, we'd hit the beach. i'd prefer very much if we'd go island hopping cos i wanna be there in the middle of the sea enjoying my sun tan.. rather with the sharks!

meanwhile, off to something more meaningful.

plateau

yo!! wazzup?!?

well, there ain't much here.

it's been pretty steady for the last three weeks.



i've got some bad news and some good news tho.. which one would you wanna hear first?

ya you pessimist you! you want the bad news, yeah?!?

well, after our recollection last saturday, went to the grocers yet again.. what can i say, i love hanging around there!

well, i finally gave in to temptation and bought me some vodka to chug-chug the night away... primary reason was, whilst i was on the recollection listening, watchin' some drama unfold and doing the usual and overrated slash overused "interactions" to sorta make us breakdown.. cry.. get emotional.. i was slurping coffee after coffee after coffee.. cos man, there's nothin' else there to entertain my mouth!



so, i was anticipating that after smokin' packs of caffiene, i'm gonna suffer some nervous breakdown and what better way to prevent it or shall we say what's the best antidote to a stimulant than alcohol, right? rrriiiigggghhhtttt!!!

but here's the good news: i haven't opened the vodka yet. today is wednesday.



lemme hear ye say "bravo!!!!!"

the thing is, once i down a shot there's no stopping me from wastin' it all away, tell ya that..

so better to hold it off 'til i can or the situation is inexcapable.

lazyin' out.

one day too late..

one night i asked wifey, "lets call nanny." she goes "sure!"

then i let it slipped off my mind.

my nanny, well was the nanny of most of my siblings except for my younger bro.

she's been battling breast cancer for years now.. chemotheraphy was out of the question as she was on stage 4 when we found out. that's like the mother of all stages when it comes to cancer, if i'm not mistaken.

anyway, she opted for natural healing and perhaps, divine intervention.

my sister was very supportive of her and her family.

me and my bros aren't exactly the expressive kind but we do cared.. only that they lived somewhere in the province of Manila and me being here in the queen city of the south and my sis and li'l bro abroad.

so, the only way to show we cared was call her from time to time... keep in touch, so to speak.

it's not something to be shock about cos we know we're just waiting for the inevitable considering the facts i mentioned above.. but the next morning when i'm supposed to call her that night - she passed away.

i felt a huge regret.

this woman didn't want to be a burden to her family. even when she was suffering with all that nasty things that go with breast cancer, she carried on.

she didn't wanna be served or babied.

only on her last three days when she couldn't stand up anymore that her daughter prepared for her meals. even then, she ate her meals all by herself.

on the last night, she asked her daughter to go on and take a rest.. sleep and not worry about her.. she'll go eat her meals later.

then, she was gone... forever.

finally, she's now free.. free from the pain and sufferings.

she will be laid to rest tomorrow.

to my nanny, wherever you are, i love you..

DL

holy shiz! this guy is a freak!



he made it look so easy, huh?

of graduation, booze and the children

soooo effing tired today.

at this early, dreamland is tempting.

that had been life for me this far... it's peaks and valleys.. then downhill all the way!

some people are gonna get bored living this way. i ain't though.

i mean, i had my time partyin' it up.. going places.. adventure.. the lot!

this is me now.

guess i'm getting old. no more energy. zest for fun, zit!

i don't even play PC games anymore, WTF?

most of my beer bud, gone.

perfect!

i was at the grocery earlier and was watching all those beer-in-cans, ya know, the six packs, then passed by the liquor area.. thought half a sec - then went straight to the beverage section and got me some Chuckie. that yum-yum chocolate milk drink, that's what i'm pouring in my cup right now.

anywho, alcohol is bad for recovery as it increases cortisol, that muscle wasting hormone that does nothing good to your physique, so better avoid it especially these days when i'm supposed to waste lotsa fat and keep 'em muscles.

i'm not saying nada tho.. i just had some rum-soda last thursday as it's my officemate's son graduation. "drink moderately" was in effect that night. LOL

meanwhile, Neil graduated from elementary too. boy, the kid is a handful, tell ya that. i hope he'd find something good where he can focus his attention to and not on something useless.



i dunno but maybe my little angel mitch is also one of the driving factor of why i'm "cool" these days.. meaning, i'm not partying up and go crazy. instead, i've been workin' hard, exercise, rest well and do something meaningful in life rather than waste away in reckless abandon and not a care in the world.



dunzo.

i, me, my

another milestone achieved today.

weighted dips: bodyweight plus forty pounds of dumbbell for five reps.

for a guy whose had shoulder problem and cannot do even my own bodyweight, that's a lot!



to think i'm supposed to be "weaker" these days.

i'm not really getting weaker.. probably getting stronger, yeah.

lighter, in fact.

i'm still eating a lot but what i'm doing is finish all my carbs early afternoon and it'll be protein all the way through the night. or, if it's not possible, really lessen the carbs.

what's more, i cycle at night. some days steady state, on other days, HIIT.

thank God for laptop, torrent and movies, otherwise it'll be one helluva boring thirty minutes of pedaling to nowhere land.

so that means i can pretty much eat a lot since i'm doing more work.

but that's not the case.

repeat after me: less is more..

i don't really get all this into my head, ya know losing weight yadi-yada, but people come up to me and say i look leaner. to be honest, i don't wanna think i'm there yet cos then i'd start to relax.

so, even when my pants and shirts are getting loser, my belt had an added two holes cos my slacks are dropping like i'm hot haha, i don't bother with how i'm losing some flabs... after all, i'm still a work in progress.

i was gonna cycle yet again tonight but my knees are bummed, my hamstrings are shot, my CNS is still recovering from my legs workout yesterday, my arms aren't at par with my brain so what am i gonna do with all these chicken shit barrier on my way?

rest.

yeah, there's still lotsa days do all that.

i'll try to make it up tomorrow.

off to la la land..

i'd love to go to some snoozefest as i could use one.

been hitting the sack early (between 21-22 hundred hours) and waking up around 4:30-5. it ain't my usual routine. in fact, it's a total 180 degrees to what it's used to be.

good thing, since my kid neil moved to this new school that starts at 7 am, there aint gonna be no excuse for me to be late at work. and, to really make sure we both go to our respective destination on time, i have to be extra early.

so here we are.

anyway, got nothin' much to say today.. just posting this non-sense so i'd have somethin' to post and it's really harder to do this with an iPhone's "friendly" keypads if you catch my drift. no, i'm not bragging about it since its almost a year that i have it. it is what is, you know what i'm sayin'?

by the way, the double-up cardio is going great. the fat is melting up twice the speed of sound!

peace out.

this is perfect...



whatta!

oh my...

this is the mother of all tiredness...

i think i'm gonna get sick real soon..

hope not.

the super-bumped cardio is killin' me... whew!

my pal, Earl had been gone for a century now somewhere in the middle east and i haven't heard of him since.. watap, part?!?

anyway, i heard my drinking pal is back.. hope he's doin' fine too.. tbh, i wouldn't wanna bother him about going out and party.. tho my taste bud is eager to taste that ice freakin' cold alcohol, i have to pass.

another pal who had been gone for years and used to hold a really high position in the company i work with is also back.. he says it's for good.

he'll start monday. again, i hope we don't have to drink if and when we'd go hang out and party.. for real, man.

so i'm boring. so what?

i'll cross the bridge yadi yada..

ciao!!

effort.

hey there!

been swamped with work these days, deym!

that's why.

well, we all feel bad about Japan and i'm guessing everyone said their piece.

so, i wouldn't add more drama to a tragic, double whammy of a misfortune the Japs has suffered.. i can only wish them well.

i hope they'll be able to cope-up with the situation with all the damage, death and the impending nuke catastrophe that's about to blow over. hopefully we don't have to suffer the same.

man, i can't even begin to imagine the sufferings those guys are going through right now.

God,, help them.

on the lighter side, i've managed to solder on with my goal.. although i'm getting a little impatient.

it's not like there's no improvement whatsoever anymore - it's just exhausting.

each week, cardio had been bumped up. knees are wearing thin.. legs are sore for days.. it's not really that hard, just takes a lot of focus and determination.

probably lost lotsa fat but pretty sure, muscles too!

you can't expect to retain them unless you're "juicing" or taking lotsa supplements such as BCAA's and whatnot.

i would be selfish if i spend all my moolah over those things when there's a boatload of responsibilities to be taken cared of - first.

anyway, i realize how stupid of me before to do all that jogging or biking as it yield me no result.. why? effort. i didn't have that.

today, i've smartened up.

if you ever want to have result, you gotta put on the work. if you're doing a so-so job, expect a so-so result.

guess it applies generally to anything... of course, in my case, it's something of interest, otherwise, i'd probably just get it done just to get by or maybe to earn me a living: like my job!

hah!

going back to the workout plan, i'm planning to do cardio twice a day.. that should speed up the process a bit more.. i got a stationary bike at home. set-up the lappy up front, load some movie/s, pedal to the metal for 20 loooooonnnnggggg minutes and we're burnin' baby!

commencing in a few minutes....

whoa!!!!

i've been having this eeerie experience the last few days.. why, you ask? well, i've seen quite a few accidents on the road involving motorcycles and it ain't a sight to behold, tell ya that.

the one that stand out: three guys laying on the road motionless and blood dripping all over the asphalt. fcuk!!!

well, the mofos were drinking prior to that and were riding the bike in pillion. they overtook a vehicle and basically encroached the other side of the road.. what do you know? head-on collision to a pick-up truck and it wasn't even his fault!

i'd be surprise if any of those a-holes survived that.

kinda scary but they had it coming, i guess.

tsk.. tsk..

i'm on a motorcycle and i do get carried away sometimes racing some mofos especially those who think they are the fastest.. just to get a point across, i indulge them.

to think i'm using a bike that's not my own.. it's a company bike.. whoooopsss!

yeah, i thought of having me another one of those dirt bike again.. but i'm not gonna force the issue tho.

a colleague has this kinda bike just sitting around their house gathering rust and pretty much useless and they're selling it dirt cheap just so they can dispose it.

if i can have it and that's a big "IF" i'd motardize it.



now, that'd be nice, yeah?

anyway, i'd love to chatter s'more but my little angel mitch is really feeling clingy right now, so, i gotta go take care of her.. be seein' you in like, soon.

out and about.

it's been really busy at work these days... and i'm awful tired by the time i'm done... thus.

anywho, still marching on with the goal.

will update anytime soon.. when things go my way next time around.

ciao!

nothing.

she's just soooooo HOT!

that's all.