oh my...

this is the mother of all tiredness...

i think i'm gonna get sick real soon..

hope not.

the super-bumped cardio is killin' me... whew!

my pal, Earl had been gone for a century now somewhere in the middle east and i haven't heard of him since.. watap, part?!?

anyway, i heard my drinking pal is back.. hope he's doin' fine too.. tbh, i wouldn't wanna bother him about going out and party.. tho my taste bud is eager to taste that ice freakin' cold alcohol, i have to pass.

another pal who had been gone for years and used to hold a really high position in the company i work with is also back.. he says it's for good.

he'll start monday. again, i hope we don't have to drink if and when we'd go hang out and party.. for real, man.

so i'm boring. so what?

i'll cross the bridge yadi yada..

ciao!!

effort.

hey there!

been swamped with work these days, deym!

that's why.

well, we all feel bad about Japan and i'm guessing everyone said their piece.

so, i wouldn't add more drama to a tragic, double whammy of a misfortune the Japs has suffered.. i can only wish them well.

i hope they'll be able to cope-up with the situation with all the damage, death and the impending nuke catastrophe that's about to blow over. hopefully we don't have to suffer the same.

man, i can't even begin to imagine the sufferings those guys are going through right now.

God,, help them.

on the lighter side, i've managed to solder on with my goal.. although i'm getting a little impatient.

it's not like there's no improvement whatsoever anymore - it's just exhausting.

each week, cardio had been bumped up. knees are wearing thin.. legs are sore for days.. it's not really that hard, just takes a lot of focus and determination.

probably lost lotsa fat but pretty sure, muscles too!

you can't expect to retain them unless you're "juicing" or taking lotsa supplements such as BCAA's and whatnot.

i would be selfish if i spend all my moolah over those things when there's a boatload of responsibilities to be taken cared of - first.

anyway, i realize how stupid of me before to do all that jogging or biking as it yield me no result.. why? effort. i didn't have that.

today, i've smartened up.

if you ever want to have result, you gotta put on the work. if you're doing a so-so job, expect a so-so result.

guess it applies generally to anything... of course, in my case, it's something of interest, otherwise, i'd probably just get it done just to get by or maybe to earn me a living: like my job!

hah!

going back to the workout plan, i'm planning to do cardio twice a day.. that should speed up the process a bit more.. i got a stationary bike at home. set-up the lappy up front, load some movie/s, pedal to the metal for 20 loooooonnnnggggg minutes and we're burnin' baby!

commencing in a few minutes....

whoa!!!!

i've been having this eeerie experience the last few days.. why, you ask? well, i've seen quite a few accidents on the road involving motorcycles and it ain't a sight to behold, tell ya that.

the one that stand out: three guys laying on the road motionless and blood dripping all over the asphalt. fcuk!!!

well, the mofos were drinking prior to that and were riding the bike in pillion. they overtook a vehicle and basically encroached the other side of the road.. what do you know? head-on collision to a pick-up truck and it wasn't even his fault!

i'd be surprise if any of those a-holes survived that.

kinda scary but they had it coming, i guess.

tsk.. tsk..

i'm on a motorcycle and i do get carried away sometimes racing some mofos especially those who think they are the fastest.. just to get a point across, i indulge them.

to think i'm using a bike that's not my own.. it's a company bike.. whoooopsss!

yeah, i thought of having me another one of those dirt bike again.. but i'm not gonna force the issue tho.

a colleague has this kinda bike just sitting around their house gathering rust and pretty much useless and they're selling it dirt cheap just so they can dispose it.

if i can have it and that's a big "IF" i'd motardize it.



now, that'd be nice, yeah?

anyway, i'd love to chatter s'more but my little angel mitch is really feeling clingy right now, so, i gotta go take care of her.. be seein' you in like, soon.

out and about.

it's been really busy at work these days... and i'm awful tired by the time i'm done... thus.

anywho, still marching on with the goal.

will update anytime soon.. when things go my way next time around.

ciao!

nothing.

she's just soooooo HOT!

that's all.

pushing tin

i can't really talk about how my personal life is in quandary.. it feels like a losing battle anyway, so why prevent the inevitable?

whatever happens, i'm ready. it is what it is and i'm not gonna go out of my way to mend whatever some people messed up.

i can't even begin to tell ya how relieve i'm gonna be if we'd part ways.. SOON.

anyway, i splurge some of my winnings on massage.. like, i got three massages in two days, how's that?!

all that cardio, boy did i deserve them massages, yeah! one was pretty kinky and you wouldn't wanna go there.. ha ha!

i am noticeably slimming down these days. my slacks, pants, panties, err, i mean boxers are getting loser. my fats are like iceberg, they're slowly but surely melting away! my officemates now asks for my advice as to how to go about their diet and exercise... fellas, i invented a magic pill and it's gonna cost you a fortune!

maybe for shiz and giggles, i'd post my "after" body like in a month or two.. i'd be damn proud of what i've accomplished.

the pain, well, they are here to stay. my calves, quads, spine, etc. are definitely aching.. i hope they'd go away soon. i'm trying out the other cardio machines there like the elliptical and it's quite tiring.. same with the stationary bike. i hope to get the hang of it so it'd me more fun to do.

my iPhone had been my "savior" when i'm there during interval sprints. it takes my mind off the time and before i know it, i almost did over an hour of intervals.

while most guys are busy updating their facebook status or twitter, i'm making headways doing some serious movie conversion... i need 'em more during down time than sayin' "off to the bathroom to take a dump, brb!" or "christina just updated her whatchamacallit status."

good thing i deactivated my facebook, erased my friendster, didn't bother with twitter or burn my fingers chatting non-sense.. worst, some of these folks are so engrossed with those online games like farming or poker, etc., they sleep in the wee hours of the morning and they'd end up like zombies at work.

it's better here. i go when i feel like it and i don't have to know whose into what, what's into this and why i even bother with your life?!? my life's complicated enough to know what's up with others. ZZzzzttt!

anyway, nuf rant and off to the gym to break s'more records.. hah!

ain't it fun

the journey continues...

last year i thought of going through this whole dieting thing and spoke about it here.. but i didn't walk the talk.

this year, i felt i needed to prove to myself that i can still turn things around if i wanted to. ya know, i've been comfortable resting in my laurels.. happy with how a beast i'd become in the gym. easily, i'm the strongest mofo there.

what i noticed though is that however strong i got, i'm easily out of breath whenever i climb some stairs. even just walking around the mall i'm easily exhausted.

today, i feel lighter. yet, i haven't stop being strong. of course, my numbers are a tad lower than when i was eating like a monster. but, i'm happy.

last week, i collected my winnings.. crazy how a lot of my officemates (even my boss) wanted some treat. dude, it's more expensive eating this way than when i was eating anywhere to my heart's content, tell ya that.

in fact, i spent more than what i've won!

oh, the irony.

it was Valentine's Day when i weighed in so next month around the same day, i'd like to know how much i've lost again.. this isn't some yo-yo diet wherein i go lose today, gain some again days later.. no!

i'm well aware of that rebound thing when you lose so much in a short span of time you'd balloned again all of a sudden.. so i gotta be consistent. if i cheat one meal or one whole day, i'd get back on track right away.

i haven't been more motivated to do some serious shiz in my life than this year.. with the help of the Almighty, i plan on stepping everything up this year and make this one count.. coz i've been dormant since forever.. hah!

so, Good Morning!

well, well, well..

looks like i... smoked everyone out!!

ha!

who'd have thought, huh?

all indication points to me winning the first price.. actually, i can feel it in my guts churning out since i got serious - i'm gonna win this.

it's been a month and seven days.

239.5 pounds was my before weight and yesterday i was 222 point something.. pounds!

that's a whopping 17 pounds lost!!

earlier, i weighed in again and i was 218!

dayum!

tomorrow, i'd probably lose s'more..

so yeah, i finally figured it out.

proper nutrition (in my case, steamed fillet chicken breast and sweet potato) and loads and loads of cardio.. the kind that could kill ya.. haha!

and it's worth mentioning your mindset - you should be at the right page when you're doing this kinda thing.

focus and a boatload of determination.. no whining, moaning.. the works..

still have a long a way to go and if they wanna go for another round, count me in!

in the meantime, it's time to celebrate and eat all i can!!!

yeah, the ones i mentioned above, of course.. still got 30-40 pounds to go!

cheers!

suicide trend

it's kinda creepy how a number of people had been killing themselves lately.. alarming, to say the least!

the past few weeks, there'd been like a LOT. one killed himself in front of his girlfriend, another took a dive a from the bridge (but lived anyway), a guy stabs his live-in partner before he went to try to kill himself.. both of which he failed miserably to do it all the way.. to top it all, a former defense secretary and armed forces chief of staff shoot himself right on his heart.. cos he can't take the "heat" anymore?!?

and there's plenty of the same i've read or heard that i've lost count of.

some says this folks are pussies.. cos they can't stand the pressure.. i'd say they're quite brave, but in a wrong way!

they're brave enough to shoot their brains out or slit their throats or jump off the bridge.. they could of use that trait and turn it into something positive.

well, some just couldn't handle too much and we're never really at their shoes, to begin with.

i had a HUGE problem last year and you know what i did? i binge on alcohol to sorta get by.

in a way, i kinda made it worst.. cos instead of manning-up and face the problem squarely, i went and took comfort of knowing i could forget my problems and feel "high" temporarily..

but i never thought of killing myself then.. even now when my spouse is caught in a gambling frenzy.. yep, that's what she got herself into.

she just loves to play cards..



worst, she's now ten times more of a party girl and outgoing when we're supposed to be more responsible now with the addition of our "instant" little girl, Angel.

i would understand if she'd go out, have fun, stay out late and enjoy a little "me" time once, twice a week.. but man, she's out there more than that.

so, that's why i'm tired of her.

i'm tired of arguing and fighting... it's a waste of time.

but i'm not gonna kill myself over that... or for her, fact of the matter .

i have more reason to live now... more than ever.

***

next week, is the final leg of our little contest.

i don't supposed i'd win it handily.. but i definitely put up a good fight. i'm pretty confident to be in the top three... we'll see..

last week i over-trained. often, on a daily basis.. after doing weights i'd go cardio for over an hour, mostly.



there was one time i felt like i was gonna have a fever.. ya know, i'm on a calorie deficit diet and doing more work, the body can only take so much.. either it super-compensates or do the nasty - get sick!

my legs (calves, hamstrings, quads, etc) are pretty burned out. at times i lost my bearings while walking around.. the treadmill had become my best bud instead of my usual poison.

i haven't drink much.. guess it's possible for me to be sober for weeks.. i don't crave on alcohol anymore.. whilst before, i usually have a stock-pile of that cheap vodka or brandy.. which is really convenient, now my "war room" don't have traces of them empty bottles. hah!

yesterday, i had a funny experience at this massage joint.



i knew they just opened weeks ago and as my hunch would have it, most masseuse/masseur aren't "seasoned" enough to handle guys like me.

so, to make this long ordeal short, went in and requested a "hard" massage which is a standard for me.

the moment this lady laid her hands on me, i knew she isn't in-the-know.

her fingers kept slipping away and she put too much oil.. OK, i got no problem with that.. at the back of my mind, what i really needed at that moment was to have a place to crash coz after yet another bone-smashing-muscle-whacking workout, i could use some forty winks.

anyway, she whispered "that's the hardest i can do, sir, sorry.." so i go, "it's OK."

when it was my back's turn, that's when she had the hardest time i can tell... her sweat is now in the mix of the oil she rubbed my back with.. i can feel her sweat dripping off my back!

then she goes again "this is the first time i've massaged a back as hard as yours!"

even though i'm disappointed that she's inexperienced, i was happy anyhow as i was able to re-charge my batteries just lying there.. "guess you'd ask for a masseur next time around, right sir?" she whispered. "no, i'll request for you again." i jokingly replied.

then came a light bulb flashing up my brains... if i'll tell you, i'll have to kill you!

anyway, long post for the weekend.. tomorrow and the days to come, it's time to grind again.

out.

cardio bunny!

i have become one.

been doin' an hour of cardio post workout. it's a combo of HIIT and steady state.

boy, it's exhausting!

eyes on the price baby!!

the rundown.. we're 11 contestants and we weigh-in roughly 3 weeks ago.

guess whose the heaviest??

me.



at almost 240 pounds (that's a shitload of fat and of course, densed muscles all over), i easily top 'em all.

right now i'm probably sitting around 210-215 lbs.

so really, this contest could not have come at a better time.. i was gonna lost 'em fat anyway for the summer and winning or collecting the pot money, icing on the cake, baby!

of course, i am being forward.

but i did put a lot of work into this so i'm pretty confident.

target would be 170 pounds and let it fluctuate between 180.. that's it.

i'm not gonna go over 200 ever again.

cos i'm not getting any younger!!

and i'll probably have more girls by then... haha!

i couldn't wait to step on the threadmill and kill s'more cardio!

burn baby.. burn!

it's ON.

well, that contest i told you about.

having less than the usual carbs i had, it's dizzying to say the least.. it's harder to think straight.

this is the walking the talk part. fun and game is over.

focus.

yeah, yeah.

i can't wait to tell you how much sacrifice, sweat, blood and guts i put up with to win this contest, yadi yada!!

but yeah, it's quite a journey, tell you that.



the tasteless crappy food i have to shove into my mouth, crazy.

win or lose, i'd still feel like a winner when this is over in a week or two time.

even then, i'm still gonna press on 'til it's summer time.. i wanna come down to where i can or until such time i plateau.

as Gordon Ramsay would often say after every Kitchen Nightmare's ending, "DON'T STOP!"

you bet i won't.

wait...

i know i said i'll post about that little contest we have in the office, but it's been really busy as of late.. wish i had more time.. and energy!

anyhoo, i'm right on track and i'll update more about it in the days to come... be seein' yah!

The Biggest Loser

Coming Soon.

yup, will post everything tomorrow.

more belated..

well, lets forget about all that smack i posted below, eh?

for now.

except for that part, 2011 came in pretty cool. i just shifted to a new program in the gym and boy, it's getting stronger, baby!

i don't usually follow anyone's program cos i find most of 'em magoo, sorry. but i've noticed my time in the gym is quite a stretch and i tend to over-trained too often... takes days to recover, pretty much.

enter MAX-OT.

base on the program outline (the one i got), it's fairly short and sweet. tho there are many variations out there, i find this one a perfect transition to my whatchamacallit program and the best part, am still getting stronger and do all that wicked exercises!

i was gonna have a partner on this travail, but i find both our schedules a tad too conflicting and he can't go mano-a-mano with the heavy-ass weight with me.. thus, it's gonna be a case of me adjusting more. in short, he'll take a lot my thunder away!

in fairness to him, i do help him out when our schedules meet.
anyway, lets see how this would all come to fruition after eight weeks.

meanwhile if you see the pictures above, those are the only few snaps that matter to me during Sinulog 2011 and no, i didn't took those; and yes, i wasn't there.

at the other front, both of my PC's are down, dam'it. the torrent rig had a blown-up PSU, the gaming rig wouldn't start cos two freakin' voltage regulators that runs both system had busted fuse! oh, it was cause by the blown up PSU.. din't really blew up but it sparked after switching it on.

i don't know what's going on in this room and so sorry loppy, but i just hate typing in this little keyboards cos my fingers are too BIG and well acquainted to desktop keys.. anyhoo, it's better than nothing..

goin' back to this room, must've some strange creatures lurking around here, huh, cos since having this laptop, i've been hanging lotsa more downstairs than here in this place i call my "war room."

i'd get you someday, creep.

in the meantime, here's Jeff doin' ridiculous amount of weighted parallel dips and other chest exercises..



someday soon, i will outwork you, Mr. Willet.

i wish.

lets make a night....

i think we're having "progress" here.

she's move to the other room and we never had the need to bug each other out like texting or that little thing we call - communicate... go fcuk your brains out there, i'll be fine, sweetie!

i hope she'd say one day, "lets separate, and don't ask me to move out as i don't have nowhere to go, lemme stay on the other room and you can do yer thing while i do mine...we'll try to get along for the kids, eh?"

why SURE YES!!!

that's the spirit, hun!

i'm being forward, of course.

but really, i'd like her to just go out there and find someone she truly loves.

someone whose rich and morbidly handsome.. someone who'll sweep her feet away!

i'd be genuinely happy for her... not too many people, girls, ladies, woman to be precise, end up like that..

raise yer feet, gurls?!?!!

i'm torn between being reserved and liberated at the same time.. we'll discuss this part further as we go along... if you're not going anywhere, that is.

in the meantime, i'm home and i dunno where she's at.

cheers and, itsa good night...

out.

i want to get away, i want to fly away..

it's new year.. it's the time of the year when people make this horrendous resolution then quit.. like, a month or two after.

i think this year is gonna be a make or break for me.. both personal and professional.

for personal, i would prefer it to break. i want separation. i want freedom. i want her out of my life.

seriously.

why, you think i'm still kidding around?

it's just fair for both of us.

i don't want her, she's gone haywire, fcuk it, LETS GO!

professionally.. hmmmmm..

i thought of quitting this year and still do.

in the meantime, i still haven't found something "golden" to warrant a bail out scheme.. so, since i still have a mountain of debts to pay, a family to feed and mucho yadi-yada that needs spending, it is but practical to stay put. besides, i surmounted quite an obstacle last year.. seem smooth on the get go when this year started.. good sign, aight?

as to the gym front, you probably thought i already quit by now, eh?

no!

i just gotten really better.. stronger.. wiser..

best of all, injury free!

so, 2010, kiss my ass goodbye!!!

2011, ya mine baby!!!

'Tis the Season

well.. well..

Merry Christmas!!

belated, yeah.

my Christmas wasn't exactly the way i want it to be.. i wanted it to be quiet. no fuss.. no visitors (bwisitors to be precise), no videoke.. no loud bangs, bangs..

ya know, simple.

i'm not a relative of The Grinch, but yeah, i kinda find it hard to be on a 'celebrating' mode when lotsa people's got no food on their table.

but they won't have it tho. them wifey and her baggages.. go figure!

long story, short - i was bored.

anyway, Christmas is ain't about me, you or anybody else but Christ.

so, Happy Birthday, Jesus!!!

~~~

meanwhile, it's almost New Year.. i still feel the same.. to keep it simple.

no big bangs of firecrackers which by the way, lotsa kids suffered mishaps last Christmas eve.

kids.. kids.. they're getting out of control these days. i mean, whatever happened to them, huh?

i'm speaking as a parent having a first-hand experience. it's not like i can look for my son the whole time cos i gotta bust my chops out there so i can feed this family.. having a "career" wife just makes it worst. she just don't have that motherly nurturing my kids need.

the baby is now one and she spends more time with her yaya (babysitter) than her mah... wifey's like she's just gotten out the cage or off the leash that she's on a roll having fun most of the time spending more time with her friends even on weekends... sigh.. whatta predicament, yeah?!?

i can't blame her entirely.. since time immemorial, i've been content spending time indoors than go out.. well, i've done all (almost, i guess) sorts of crazy things saved for bungee jumping and skydiving, so i kinda lost that zest for adventure.. not to mention, i gotta stay in one piece cos i can't think for myself anymore as now many people depend on me.

the only time i get to risk a bit or do some stupid shit, albeit controlled, is when i'm in the gym.

otherwise, i'm too careful... driving, drinking or just plainly going through the day. i barely socialize or go out with friends... there were plenty of parties and invites when december came in, i opted not to expound whenever the subject is discussed.

if you've been reading the news, so many unfortunate things happened outside cos people these days are getting more crazy and daring.

besides, i'm not getting any younger.

so, i'm either right or i've become withdrawn and/or boring.

anyhoo, i think i've posted long enough, yet i still have more shiz to spill later on.. my brain is about to explode so i'd rather zip it.

Ball and Biscuit for CHRISTmas...

ya might think i've completely forgotten about this place, yeah?!?

na-ah!!!

i wish i got more energy to update this... excuses, excuses... i know!!

anyhow, Merry CHRISTmas y'all.. hope things improve next year around here.. in the meantime, lets have a Ball and Biscuit, shall we?



cheers!

man, i had a freak accident today. i was too excited to get into the swing of things in the gym.. after racking back the dumbbells, my left index finger got caught between the bar and that part of a metal on the rack.. definitely, a hard one.

seconds later, blood started oozing out of my finger.. really screwed up my routine today (well, some of it). been through that kind of accident before this one tops it all. oh well.

anyway, i'm almost done with this program i've been doing for five (maybe six) weeks now and next week should be the last. it's a six week jacked chest and shoulder routine by doctor hyght. been sitting around gathering dust in my PC's archive.. i usually pick a few stuffs from anyone and sorta put it into my own little concoction.. i usually end up over-trained doing that.. even with this new program, i took it upon myself to add a few sets and reps here and there.. cos i kinda feel wanting.

lets see how this translates next week.

major improvement of course is my strength. i got a few pounds more strength with all the pressing.. along with that is the added weight. shiz!

meanwhile, off to my beauty rest.

by the way, today's another election day and i didn't vote yet again.

ha!

boom!

yeap, am still here.. just don't have the motivation to blog something.. anyway, i can play the darn song like forever and i won't feel tired of it... maybe..