i feel bad for my yaya (nanny). she has breast cancer and she's been suffering from it for years now... it's beyond help. sigh.
she's been doing all that self-medication from herbal medicine to whatever it is that's being hyped up over the radio or TV... to no avail.
she's getting thinner by the day and in bed most of the time.
my heart was ready to explode yesterday when i called her up... she tried to keep things "normal" and still talk in high spirit.. of course, i know how bad her situation was and am just trying to put up a brave face in the midst of all her sufferings... i'm just not ready to concede that any day from now, she could be gone.. she's just the nicest person in the world to me.. so much nicer and kinder than my ma..
all my prayers to you, yaya...
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meanwhile, i've been having this weird dizziness i dunno what the heck is going on.. kinda vertigo.. then felt some kinda pang of pain on my head every now and then.. i hate the thought of being sick in the head.. of all places, i'd rather that it ain't the head..
maybe this has something to do with all that holding my breath when i'm lifting.. ya know, like your head could burst for holding on too much air.. aaaawwwww!!!
so much for that head thing.
we die.. we die swingin'...
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Neil just had his first boy scout camping.. gotta hand it to the kid.. he's just full of life.. so much excitement going on in him.
last night, he was all agog with the preparation. then this morning when i woke him up, he was just rolling around the bed, but when i mentioned he can't make it to the camping, he just jump right up and went to devour his breakfast.. next thing i know, he's all dressed up and good to go!
i wish i have the same energy and zest.
happy camping, kiddo!
40 winks comin' up...
take care, y'all!
