pushing tin

i can't really talk about how my personal life is in quandary.. it feels like a losing battle anyway, so why prevent the inevitable?

whatever happens, i'm ready. it is what it is and i'm not gonna go out of my way to mend whatever some people messed up.

i can't even begin to tell ya how relieve i'm gonna be if we'd part ways.. SOON.

anyway, i splurge some of my winnings on massage.. like, i got three massages in two days, how's that?!

all that cardio, boy did i deserve them massages, yeah! one was pretty kinky and you wouldn't wanna go there.. ha ha!

i am noticeably slimming down these days. my slacks, pants, panties, err, i mean boxers are getting loser. my fats are like iceberg, they're slowly but surely melting away! my officemates now asks for my advice as to how to go about their diet and exercise... fellas, i invented a magic pill and it's gonna cost you a fortune!

maybe for shiz and giggles, i'd post my "after" body like in a month or two.. i'd be damn proud of what i've accomplished.

the pain, well, they are here to stay. my calves, quads, spine, etc. are definitely aching.. i hope they'd go away soon. i'm trying out the other cardio machines there like the elliptical and it's quite tiring.. same with the stationary bike. i hope to get the hang of it so it'd me more fun to do.

my iPhone had been my "savior" when i'm there during interval sprints. it takes my mind off the time and before i know it, i almost did over an hour of intervals.

while most guys are busy updating their facebook status or twitter, i'm making headways doing some serious movie conversion... i need 'em more during down time than sayin' "off to the bathroom to take a dump, brb!" or "christina just updated her whatchamacallit status."

good thing i deactivated my facebook, erased my friendster, didn't bother with twitter or burn my fingers chatting non-sense.. worst, some of these folks are so engrossed with those online games like farming or poker, etc., they sleep in the wee hours of the morning and they'd end up like zombies at work.

it's better here. i go when i feel like it and i don't have to know whose into what, what's into this and why i even bother with your life?!? my life's complicated enough to know what's up with others. ZZzzzttt!

anyway, nuf rant and off to the gym to break s'more records.. hah!

ain't it fun

the journey continues...

last year i thought of going through this whole dieting thing and spoke about it here.. but i didn't walk the talk.

this year, i felt i needed to prove to myself that i can still turn things around if i wanted to. ya know, i've been comfortable resting in my laurels.. happy with how a beast i'd become in the gym. easily, i'm the strongest mofo there.

what i noticed though is that however strong i got, i'm easily out of breath whenever i climb some stairs. even just walking around the mall i'm easily exhausted.

today, i feel lighter. yet, i haven't stop being strong. of course, my numbers are a tad lower than when i was eating like a monster. but, i'm happy.

last week, i collected my winnings.. crazy how a lot of my officemates (even my boss) wanted some treat. dude, it's more expensive eating this way than when i was eating anywhere to my heart's content, tell ya that.

in fact, i spent more than what i've won!

oh, the irony.

it was Valentine's Day when i weighed in so next month around the same day, i'd like to know how much i've lost again.. this isn't some yo-yo diet wherein i go lose today, gain some again days later.. no!

i'm well aware of that rebound thing when you lose so much in a short span of time you'd balloned again all of a sudden.. so i gotta be consistent. if i cheat one meal or one whole day, i'd get back on track right away.

i haven't been more motivated to do some serious shiz in my life than this year.. with the help of the Almighty, i plan on stepping everything up this year and make this one count.. coz i've been dormant since forever.. hah!

so, Good Morning!

well, well, well..

looks like i... smoked everyone out!!

ha!

who'd have thought, huh?

all indication points to me winning the first price.. actually, i can feel it in my guts churning out since i got serious - i'm gonna win this.

it's been a month and seven days.

239.5 pounds was my before weight and yesterday i was 222 point something.. pounds!

that's a whopping 17 pounds lost!!

earlier, i weighed in again and i was 218!

dayum!

tomorrow, i'd probably lose s'more..

so yeah, i finally figured it out.

proper nutrition (in my case, steamed fillet chicken breast and sweet potato) and loads and loads of cardio.. the kind that could kill ya.. haha!

and it's worth mentioning your mindset - you should be at the right page when you're doing this kinda thing.

focus and a boatload of determination.. no whining, moaning.. the works..

still have a long a way to go and if they wanna go for another round, count me in!

in the meantime, it's time to celebrate and eat all i can!!!

yeah, the ones i mentioned above, of course.. still got 30-40 pounds to go!

cheers!

suicide trend

it's kinda creepy how a number of people had been killing themselves lately.. alarming, to say the least!

the past few weeks, there'd been like a LOT. one killed himself in front of his girlfriend, another took a dive a from the bridge (but lived anyway), a guy stabs his live-in partner before he went to try to kill himself.. both of which he failed miserably to do it all the way.. to top it all, a former defense secretary and armed forces chief of staff shoot himself right on his heart.. cos he can't take the "heat" anymore?!?

and there's plenty of the same i've read or heard that i've lost count of.

some says this folks are pussies.. cos they can't stand the pressure.. i'd say they're quite brave, but in a wrong way!

they're brave enough to shoot their brains out or slit their throats or jump off the bridge.. they could of use that trait and turn it into something positive.

well, some just couldn't handle too much and we're never really at their shoes, to begin with.

i had a HUGE problem last year and you know what i did? i binge on alcohol to sorta get by.

in a way, i kinda made it worst.. cos instead of manning-up and face the problem squarely, i went and took comfort of knowing i could forget my problems and feel "high" temporarily..

but i never thought of killing myself then.. even now when my spouse is caught in a gambling frenzy.. yep, that's what she got herself into.

she just loves to play cards..



worst, she's now ten times more of a party girl and outgoing when we're supposed to be more responsible now with the addition of our "instant" little girl, Angel.

i would understand if she'd go out, have fun, stay out late and enjoy a little "me" time once, twice a week.. but man, she's out there more than that.

so, that's why i'm tired of her.

i'm tired of arguing and fighting... it's a waste of time.

but i'm not gonna kill myself over that... or for her, fact of the matter .

i have more reason to live now... more than ever.

***

next week, is the final leg of our little contest.

i don't supposed i'd win it handily.. but i definitely put up a good fight. i'm pretty confident to be in the top three... we'll see..

last week i over-trained. often, on a daily basis.. after doing weights i'd go cardio for over an hour, mostly.



there was one time i felt like i was gonna have a fever.. ya know, i'm on a calorie deficit diet and doing more work, the body can only take so much.. either it super-compensates or do the nasty - get sick!

my legs (calves, hamstrings, quads, etc) are pretty burned out. at times i lost my bearings while walking around.. the treadmill had become my best bud instead of my usual poison.

i haven't drink much.. guess it's possible for me to be sober for weeks.. i don't crave on alcohol anymore.. whilst before, i usually have a stock-pile of that cheap vodka or brandy.. which is really convenient, now my "war room" don't have traces of them empty bottles. hah!

yesterday, i had a funny experience at this massage joint.



i knew they just opened weeks ago and as my hunch would have it, most masseuse/masseur aren't "seasoned" enough to handle guys like me.

so, to make this long ordeal short, went in and requested a "hard" massage which is a standard for me.

the moment this lady laid her hands on me, i knew she isn't in-the-know.

her fingers kept slipping away and she put too much oil.. OK, i got no problem with that.. at the back of my mind, what i really needed at that moment was to have a place to crash coz after yet another bone-smashing-muscle-whacking workout, i could use some forty winks.

anyway, she whispered "that's the hardest i can do, sir, sorry.." so i go, "it's OK."

when it was my back's turn, that's when she had the hardest time i can tell... her sweat is now in the mix of the oil she rubbed my back with.. i can feel her sweat dripping off my back!

then she goes again "this is the first time i've massaged a back as hard as yours!"

even though i'm disappointed that she's inexperienced, i was happy anyhow as i was able to re-charge my batteries just lying there.. "guess you'd ask for a masseur next time around, right sir?" she whispered. "no, i'll request for you again." i jokingly replied.

then came a light bulb flashing up my brains... if i'll tell you, i'll have to kill you!

anyway, long post for the weekend.. tomorrow and the days to come, it's time to grind again.

out.

cardio bunny!

i have become one.

been doin' an hour of cardio post workout. it's a combo of HIIT and steady state.

boy, it's exhausting!

eyes on the price baby!!

the rundown.. we're 11 contestants and we weigh-in roughly 3 weeks ago.

guess whose the heaviest??

me.



at almost 240 pounds (that's a shitload of fat and of course, densed muscles all over), i easily top 'em all.

right now i'm probably sitting around 210-215 lbs.

so really, this contest could not have come at a better time.. i was gonna lost 'em fat anyway for the summer and winning or collecting the pot money, icing on the cake, baby!

of course, i am being forward.

but i did put a lot of work into this so i'm pretty confident.

target would be 170 pounds and let it fluctuate between 180.. that's it.

i'm not gonna go over 200 ever again.

cos i'm not getting any younger!!

and i'll probably have more girls by then... haha!

i couldn't wait to step on the threadmill and kill s'more cardio!

burn baby.. burn!

it's ON.

well, that contest i told you about.

having less than the usual carbs i had, it's dizzying to say the least.. it's harder to think straight.

this is the walking the talk part. fun and game is over.

focus.

yeah, yeah.

i can't wait to tell you how much sacrifice, sweat, blood and guts i put up with to win this contest, yadi yada!!

but yeah, it's quite a journey, tell you that.



the tasteless crappy food i have to shove into my mouth, crazy.

win or lose, i'd still feel like a winner when this is over in a week or two time.

even then, i'm still gonna press on 'til it's summer time.. i wanna come down to where i can or until such time i plateau.

as Gordon Ramsay would often say after every Kitchen Nightmare's ending, "DON'T STOP!"

you bet i won't.

wait...

i know i said i'll post about that little contest we have in the office, but it's been really busy as of late.. wish i had more time.. and energy!

anyhoo, i'm right on track and i'll update more about it in the days to come... be seein' yah!

The Biggest Loser

Coming Soon.

yup, will post everything tomorrow.

more belated..

well, lets forget about all that smack i posted below, eh?

for now.

except for that part, 2011 came in pretty cool. i just shifted to a new program in the gym and boy, it's getting stronger, baby!

i don't usually follow anyone's program cos i find most of 'em magoo, sorry. but i've noticed my time in the gym is quite a stretch and i tend to over-trained too often... takes days to recover, pretty much.

enter MAX-OT.

base on the program outline (the one i got), it's fairly short and sweet. tho there are many variations out there, i find this one a perfect transition to my whatchamacallit program and the best part, am still getting stronger and do all that wicked exercises!

i was gonna have a partner on this travail, but i find both our schedules a tad too conflicting and he can't go mano-a-mano with the heavy-ass weight with me.. thus, it's gonna be a case of me adjusting more. in short, he'll take a lot my thunder away!

in fairness to him, i do help him out when our schedules meet.
anyway, lets see how this would all come to fruition after eight weeks.

meanwhile if you see the pictures above, those are the only few snaps that matter to me during Sinulog 2011 and no, i didn't took those; and yes, i wasn't there.

at the other front, both of my PC's are down, dam'it. the torrent rig had a blown-up PSU, the gaming rig wouldn't start cos two freakin' voltage regulators that runs both system had busted fuse! oh, it was cause by the blown up PSU.. din't really blew up but it sparked after switching it on.

i don't know what's going on in this room and so sorry loppy, but i just hate typing in this little keyboards cos my fingers are too BIG and well acquainted to desktop keys.. anyhoo, it's better than nothing..

goin' back to this room, must've some strange creatures lurking around here, huh, cos since having this laptop, i've been hanging lotsa more downstairs than here in this place i call my "war room."

i'd get you someday, creep.

in the meantime, here's Jeff doin' ridiculous amount of weighted parallel dips and other chest exercises..



someday soon, i will outwork you, Mr. Willet.

i wish.

lets make a night....

i think we're having "progress" here.

she's move to the other room and we never had the need to bug each other out like texting or that little thing we call - communicate... go fcuk your brains out there, i'll be fine, sweetie!

i hope she'd say one day, "lets separate, and don't ask me to move out as i don't have nowhere to go, lemme stay on the other room and you can do yer thing while i do mine...we'll try to get along for the kids, eh?"

why SURE YES!!!

that's the spirit, hun!

i'm being forward, of course.

but really, i'd like her to just go out there and find someone she truly loves.

someone whose rich and morbidly handsome.. someone who'll sweep her feet away!

i'd be genuinely happy for her... not too many people, girls, ladies, woman to be precise, end up like that..

raise yer feet, gurls?!?!!

i'm torn between being reserved and liberated at the same time.. we'll discuss this part further as we go along... if you're not going anywhere, that is.

in the meantime, i'm home and i dunno where she's at.

cheers and, itsa good night...

out.

i want to get away, i want to fly away..

it's new year.. it's the time of the year when people make this horrendous resolution then quit.. like, a month or two after.

i think this year is gonna be a make or break for me.. both personal and professional.

for personal, i would prefer it to break. i want separation. i want freedom. i want her out of my life.

seriously.

why, you think i'm still kidding around?

it's just fair for both of us.

i don't want her, she's gone haywire, fcuk it, LETS GO!

professionally.. hmmmmm..

i thought of quitting this year and still do.

in the meantime, i still haven't found something "golden" to warrant a bail out scheme.. so, since i still have a mountain of debts to pay, a family to feed and mucho yadi-yada that needs spending, it is but practical to stay put. besides, i surmounted quite an obstacle last year.. seem smooth on the get go when this year started.. good sign, aight?

as to the gym front, you probably thought i already quit by now, eh?

no!

i just gotten really better.. stronger.. wiser..

best of all, injury free!

so, 2010, kiss my ass goodbye!!!

2011, ya mine baby!!!

'Tis the Season

well.. well..

Merry Christmas!!

belated, yeah.

my Christmas wasn't exactly the way i want it to be.. i wanted it to be quiet. no fuss.. no visitors (bwisitors to be precise), no videoke.. no loud bangs, bangs..

ya know, simple.

i'm not a relative of The Grinch, but yeah, i kinda find it hard to be on a 'celebrating' mode when lotsa people's got no food on their table.

but they won't have it tho. them wifey and her baggages.. go figure!

long story, short - i was bored.

anyway, Christmas is ain't about me, you or anybody else but Christ.

so, Happy Birthday, Jesus!!!

~~~

meanwhile, it's almost New Year.. i still feel the same.. to keep it simple.

no big bangs of firecrackers which by the way, lotsa kids suffered mishaps last Christmas eve.

kids.. kids.. they're getting out of control these days. i mean, whatever happened to them, huh?

i'm speaking as a parent having a first-hand experience. it's not like i can look for my son the whole time cos i gotta bust my chops out there so i can feed this family.. having a "career" wife just makes it worst. she just don't have that motherly nurturing my kids need.

the baby is now one and she spends more time with her yaya (babysitter) than her mah... wifey's like she's just gotten out the cage or off the leash that she's on a roll having fun most of the time spending more time with her friends even on weekends... sigh.. whatta predicament, yeah?!?

i can't blame her entirely.. since time immemorial, i've been content spending time indoors than go out.. well, i've done all (almost, i guess) sorts of crazy things saved for bungee jumping and skydiving, so i kinda lost that zest for adventure.. not to mention, i gotta stay in one piece cos i can't think for myself anymore as now many people depend on me.

the only time i get to risk a bit or do some stupid shit, albeit controlled, is when i'm in the gym.

otherwise, i'm too careful... driving, drinking or just plainly going through the day. i barely socialize or go out with friends... there were plenty of parties and invites when december came in, i opted not to expound whenever the subject is discussed.

if you've been reading the news, so many unfortunate things happened outside cos people these days are getting more crazy and daring.

besides, i'm not getting any younger.

so, i'm either right or i've become withdrawn and/or boring.

anyhoo, i think i've posted long enough, yet i still have more shiz to spill later on.. my brain is about to explode so i'd rather zip it.

Ball and Biscuit for CHRISTmas...

ya might think i've completely forgotten about this place, yeah?!?

na-ah!!!

i wish i got more energy to update this... excuses, excuses... i know!!

anyhow, Merry CHRISTmas y'all.. hope things improve next year around here.. in the meantime, lets have a Ball and Biscuit, shall we?



cheers!

man, i had a freak accident today. i was too excited to get into the swing of things in the gym.. after racking back the dumbbells, my left index finger got caught between the bar and that part of a metal on the rack.. definitely, a hard one.

seconds later, blood started oozing out of my finger.. really screwed up my routine today (well, some of it). been through that kind of accident before this one tops it all. oh well.

anyway, i'm almost done with this program i've been doing for five (maybe six) weeks now and next week should be the last. it's a six week jacked chest and shoulder routine by doctor hyght. been sitting around gathering dust in my PC's archive.. i usually pick a few stuffs from anyone and sorta put it into my own little concoction.. i usually end up over-trained doing that.. even with this new program, i took it upon myself to add a few sets and reps here and there.. cos i kinda feel wanting.

lets see how this translates next week.

major improvement of course is my strength. i got a few pounds more strength with all the pressing.. along with that is the added weight. shiz!

meanwhile, off to my beauty rest.

by the way, today's another election day and i didn't vote yet again.

ha!

boom!

yeap, am still here.. just don't have the motivation to blog something.. anyway, i can play the darn song like forever and i won't feel tired of it... maybe..

major, major day...

"Sorry, the blog at radsonites8273.blogspot.com has been removed"

this sucks!!!

i don't know why but them stole my thunder away!!!

yeah, i was just about to write something today.

it's supposed to be special, ya know...

testing 1.. 2.. 3..

kinda lost my blog for eons now..

so.

this brings out the LOLs!

watch...

R.I.P. Brandon Lee

watched The Crow all over again.. that's what.

she...

i like.

one f.. bad day!

awful, awful..



but it's over....

for now.

in teh clubbin'

i listened and watched the video of this...



then i kinda missed bar hoppin'.

B.o.B.

what can i say, i like the beat, the tune.. lyrics and all!

lez pahty!!!

i'm sweatin' all over!!

was i?

zit.

yeahhhhh mannnn!!!!

i wanna play this when some jerk off starts grunting around like they effin' own the gym!!!

char!ce

this'll be No. 1 in Billboard like really soon..



crossed fingers.

Election 2010

didn't vote today. most of the feedbacks i've heard from people who went out to vote didn't paint a rosy picture.. much less from the media.. i'm better off sleeping than go out wait for hours.

it's supposed to be faster cos it's the first time COMELEC (commission on election) implemented a computerize/automated system.. but shit man, i don't like waiting for hours standing under this weather condition. worst, my walkman phone isn't working. so, just imagine the boredom it's gonna take.

not that i tried. i did went and check out my voting place (public school). didn't made it through my precinct, however. traffic jam and a shitload of people all over the place was a scary sight. either those folks are campaigning (giving leaflets, etc.) or were stuck with the long queue of people who're also waiting for their turn.

in contrast, most places where no public school in sight look like ghost town.

i was expecting it to be more convenient, what with the automation mambo-jambo, but it turned out to be worst than the manual system!

yep, i'm better off sleeping... i worked out harder today since the gym ain't too busy. set a new PR with my half-squat from the pins.. it's almost 500 pounds baby!

my lower back feels like its been run over by a truck.. no, a bulldozer best describes it!

anyway, congrats in advance to the winners! i'm sure the election will do just fine one less vote from me.

adieus!

what can i say.... like this a LOT!!!

chill time....

i like.

Dizz Knee Land

what an expensive upgrade! i just wanted to change the stock fan of my CPU unto something more cooler.. ya know, something that would prolong its life.. not that it hasn't been a year since i bought it, but it's been plagued with constant hang-ups especially if you play a "heavy" game such as Call of Duty's Modern Warfare 2.

well, i bought it a good cooler, a Coolermaster, not the super high-end one with all the lights and blings on, just a medium-end but gets the job done.

installation was easy, thanks to Youtube but i got a little careless along the way... on my way to tightening it's bolts, i tightened it a wee bit hard it damaged the motherboard.

so, when i finish installing everything and turn it ON, its indicator lit but it wouldn't start. bought it to GreenValley Computer Repair shop and was diagnosed to have and effed up mobo. sigh.

waited a week to have it fixed, tested it on their place and was good to go, paid 900 bucks, but when i got home and turned it up, the sucker wouldn't start!

i had a 30-day warranty. i didn't availed.

charged to experience. when shit like this happens, repair is futile. better replace.

bought a new one... geez, i bought a slew of other things like a SilverStone chassis and a PSU. got 'em for 3 and 12 months zero-interest, respectively.

on the other hand, my old-reliable Pentium 4 is still standing up strong.. yep, i upgraded its cooler too.. pretty sturdy for a torrent rig, tell ya that!

this one i'm using now though is soooo much faster and much more powerful.. it's got a high-end processor, max-out ram and overclocked to its limits!

i'm pretty happy, but sad at the same time.

i know you catch my drift...

now, i wanna go to..

untitled 13

eyyyyyyy!!!

it's been a while.. so i figured.

bleh!

hah!

well, i haven't really been that busy.. just doin' things i enjoy more than sayin' sweet nothing over here.

and, it ain't all fun and games neither.

basically, it's in between.

it's pretty unbelievable how much one can accomplish when one is doin' somethin' he enjoys... on the other hand, you can have a so-so performance on something you do to meet both ends and get away with it, cos geez, ya just have to do it.

sucks to be on the latter.

anyway, someday.. someday... i'll get to do what i do best... and earn from it.

that's the plan.

my candle is burnin' out fast on the other end while i'm glowing on the other side of the spectrum.

hmmmmmm... figures.

chao!

for now.

acoustic, i miss teh good ol' days....

so, i like them, err, her, a lot.



whatcha gonna do?

just...

i don't care if it's "gay...."



i like this song... reminds me of something... ha! ha!

this, i like.

the muzik ROCKS just as well as the training!

teh rants 109

the world is a vampire.... play tough!

and i mean it in every sense of the word.

you go out there, shit could happen.

you gotta be a little paranoid.

don't expect anyone to be nicey-nicey... just because they said "hi."

trust no one.

there are only two people i trust... one is ME and the other... is NOT YOU!

i don't give a rats what other people say... let them fuck themselves out...

i can only care about myself, my family and my territory... ya wanna cross the line, good luck!

rant off.

btw, THIS cause it.

my angel

boom... boom... boom...

love the beat... and the video, kewl!

have you seen my baby?



the love of my life?



soon....

tease me... baby!

if you ever wanna have a li'l fun....

CLICK ME


















did ya?

Avs

avril lavigne's still packing heat, yeah?!



i thought so too.

ya kidding?

the vid's sooooo much fun... the song is worth mentioning too!

lazyin' around

yeah... too lazy to write anything.. but someday.. someday..

meanwhile.. more mtv's for yah!



keep it tight.

jam

i want to parteeeeeyyyyy!!!!!

tiff

i love her then....





and now.

odd night

just messing with ya....

ya dig?

fixed.

acoustic

this rocks!



no, nobody's messing with my mind, ayt? just luuuurve this song... just it.

whatta day!!

for lack of better things to rant about...



BADass day it is... in case you're curious.

ey there!

it's been a while, huh?

been really busy.. if you read back a bit, i had a mountain of a problem to surmount.

broke through... but the road wasn't nowhere easy.

i had to summon all human strength i have and walk up there to man-up.

it paid off.

problem solved.

but wait, more are waiting in wings.

damn life.

"live to stress, die to rest."

indeed.

anyhoo, life is gonna be that way no matter what.. either you stress it or ya keep things in stride..

this makes a lotta sense...

"there is no problem too big God cannot solve it..."

you can either moan and whine, but that can only get you so far...

forgive me, but i gotta finish watchin' The Godfather series.

good movie!

bad bad bad!

one more...

Edie Brickell

loved this....

last song syndrome

I Love You

anyone out there who deserves some lovin'....

this song's for ya...



we all could use a little lovin', right?!?

mwah!

weird thing happened this week... we didn't plan it or personally, i never thought of it.. long story short, we now have a 2-week old baby girl.

i don't know... things are goin' crazy around me these days.

hope to be back on "earth" soon.

Band of Brothers

wow!! it's New Year already??

that was fast!

i wish it'd be better next year... for all of us.

i can't really ask for more... got everything i need...

hhhhmmmmm.... i only need basic things.

yez, am watchin' Band of Brothers and i'll never grow tired of it, sorry.

see yah next year!

hey buddy.

yeah i remember my buddy, lui whenever i see this guy.

wherever ya are man, Happy New Year.

hope you're doing well...

Amy Grant

ey yo?!

Merry Christmas, before anything else...

it's the 24th and i have to say --- whatta stressful day, dammit?!

wifey, made sure of that.

it's the last minute thing ya know... no plans whatsoever... out of the blue, to be exact..

but we pulled it through.. they're there downstairs enjoying their videoke fix.. i'm here watchin' movie yadi yada..

nice set-up, huh?

gotta say whatta colorful year it was... ooooppppsss!!! i know, it ain't new year yet.. lemme just say teh memorable ones... it had to be the tail end of this year... i guess.

professionally, there ain't much.. family-wise, i suck teh most... gym-wise, i gain lotsa things...

i just mentioned a few post ago i pulled and squatted over 400 lbs.. it's hard, yeah.

but the hardest was pushing a 100 lb dumbbell... i had a history of shoulder injury, that's why.

havin' conquered that, finally, means a lot more to me than anything else..

i had to do it over and over again... just to make sure the feat wasn't some kinda fluke, ya know... t'was a battle all the time.. mind over matter..

i'm not totally sold out yet, but just like before when i made it to 80, 90 lbs., this too will come to pass and it'll be ordinary all over again...

120 lbs., you're next.

meanwhile, i'm listening to Amy Grant's song... helps me chill out during these times..

cheers.

'tis the season

change.. i did.

no, i don't wanna be like 'em.

wtf was i talking about below?

i did change.

a lot.

lemme brag a bit...

i can push a 200 pounds of weight... [insert smiley and smirk here]

i can pull over 400s pound of weight... that ain't much, right?

i can squat just teh same amount of weight... ya should try it sometimes.

i'm betting my ass i can equal teh strength of of teh "strongest" guy in the gym in a year's time..

wanna bet???

yarp, can't believe it neither.

how???

try bustin' yer chops a wad bit more... like start rampin' everything up, already!!

anyhow, i'm gonna dream about topping everything out.. next week.

watch me.

bragging OFF.

change.. will do you good

yeah.. that's me.. i haven't change much.. same old, same old... i dunno if it's a good thing or bad.. hhhmmmm...

MAN-UP!!

thought of sooooo many things to say.. i haven't collated everything. sucks, huh?

yeah it does.

anyway, my personal life's in disarray.. it might not look like it, but it does. work, as always sucks.. got a few things that needs immediate action or it'll blow over.

i'm prepared for the worst though.

home... ahhhhh home... these guys and gals can't get things done without being told how to do about it.. well, they do get things done only that they kinda suck along the way.

they suck literally. ya know, they can't even help putting food on the table, worst part is, they don't know how to conserve... they can practically drain our resources in a short span of time.. talk about days.. shit, these folks are animals... i can't even begin to enumerate the what's and the how's.

not to mention, some are a real pain in the ass.. they just know where to push your buttons.. well, most of the time, i don't mind 'em.

they can keep their miserable shits to themselves... i'll go on live my life.

today, tomorrow and for the rest of my life, i promise myself one thing.. and one thing only.. that is, to MAN-UP.

i can't worry about everyone else' issues.. if i do, it'll just drag me down.. na-ah!

no way never.. bitching about other's issues won't lead me anywhere but down.. stuck!

so yes, i won't worry my life away.. maybe a tad.

guess, i'm born like that...

set a new PR this week.. i finally flat bench press the darn 100 pound dumbbells for five repetitions! that took forever, yeah?!

that was my promise to myself that before the year ends, i should conquer the darn thing.. and i have..

my deadlift went up 180 kgs for one rep... not bad for an old timer, eh?!

lets sing together now..

Pedro

hikhik!



don't forget to smile...

i am the walrus

whatta tight and lousy day!

wifey made sure i suck on my workout today. she had me rush to the bank to make some deposits and left me to fend for the house cos her and the rest of her posse had to go party.. on the bright side, they brought home a new microwave oven. at least, they won something.. deym, i almost forgot how that thing work. well, the one we have ain't workin' no more... for months now.

anyway, i took a leave today. i deserve a break, ya know. the thing is, my superior isn't too generous giving leaves.. approving should've been the word.

he always feel the need to swipe some nasty remark.. he probably thinks he's funny.

well, f him. unless they convert the un-use leave into cash or something tangible, i'm availing it (the leaves) even it means they'd shut down their pie-holes!

i'm pretty burnout with work these days. that explains the line.

got a few bumps that would entail a lot of work.

pretty stressful, to be honest.

makes me wanna quit pronto!

i'm just gonna sort this mess out. finish everything..

then i can cry out loud....

F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!

i'm insecured, yeah. i've got issues, right.

but as soon as i'm out, i'll stop bitching about everyone and everything that's holding me back physically and mentally, then i can soar somewhere higher than this.

this is getting redundant.

pizzing off.

arnold press

am hoping i'm scot free but i ain't.

well, i was hoping the verdict is out... ya know, i wanna get this done and over with.

somehow, some kinda force of nature got in the way... either i'd be thankful or feel guilty forever.. hhmmmmm...

whatta predicament!!

either way, i'm bent on doin' somethin' else... something i really, really want.

don't we all wanna do something we want??

it's like something to look forward to - everyday.

ya know, i don't mind waking up early and eating some iron for breakfast.. i don't mind eating egg whites (boiled), churning out oatmeal after oatmeal or eating raw broccoli's..

i don't mind the pain that goes through my hamstrings or rotator cuffs... as long as i feel some kinda exhilaration.. surreal? yeah!!

i dig it!

one preacher quoted somebody sayin' "life's too short to be ordinary."

yeah... hell yeah!!!


go figure!!

judgement day

am not out of the woods yet.

i'm trying to stay calm. tomorrow, the verdict should be out.

i did it.. not because there's so much to gain.. but lotsa pressure from all corners.

more reason to have a change of perspective, yeah?

i'm pretty psyched and prepared.. sorta.

anyhoo, i was pretty strong at the gym earlier.. broke some PR's.

for squats, all in kilograms, started with 40 x 3, 80 x 3, 120 x 3, 160 x 3 and lastly, 180 x 3, then i drop the weight back to 160 x 5 all the way down 40 x 5.

same goes with the deadlifts except that at the top of the set, i only managed to get it to 170 x 3.. probably because my CNS' pretty toasted by then.

all these lifts, by the way excludes the bar which is roughly about 40 pounds, give and take.

basically, i've gone over 400 pounds on both lifts today and i'm pretty happy.

got this protocol somewhere and tweak it to my liking.

so, even though what i'm about to face tomorrow is a huge distraction, i still manage to squeeze out some serious workout and even broke a few PR's.

i'd rather not worry...

screwed

i'm so dead right now.

i did the darnest thing.

shit.

i don't know what's gonna happen next.

kinda crazy.

anyway,




wish me luck.

10 loooong years!

heeeeyyy!!

i better write something before this blog goes down the shitters.. been really busy lately. work, work, work!!

i wish i didn't have to so i could do what i do best.. seriously, i'm thinkin' bout this year being my last hurrah doing my job.

i'm not really good at it.. i just get things done that's why they've pretty much kept me here.

talk about doin' things half-ass most of the time.. but then again, i get things done. that's what matters - at least for my kinda job.

on the other hand, i'm really getting better at working out. people respect me, i can feel that. ya know, those groupies who thinks they're the strongest and most advance, they go out of their way to be nicey-nicey with me.

what sets me apart from these fockers is the fact that they're strong, yes, but they're "on" to something. while i can beat their asses on some lifts even though i'm a natural.. meaning, i haven't mess around chemicals and stuff while them are being "scientists."

sometimes, i feel like they're giving me too much credit.

i do things differently and they've kinda got this "shock and awe" look on their faces... they still can't believe i'm just a mere mortal with no drug assistance.

some dimwit are actually quick to jump on their arse when some "juiced" guy give them some sorta program to follow. frankly, i take it with a grain of salt when these guys give advises. it's like apples and oranges, homo. ya think what works for him will work for ya??

no freaking way!

i don't know man.. i'm happy where i am when it comes to experience and knowledge.. no injuries whatsoever.. my lifts, decent.

the only thing that's missing right now and am trying to figure this out since forever, is how i can do something i enjoy and at the same time earn some moolah on the side???

ten years of busting my chops, i think it's high time i do something else.

on the other hand, my job's not rocket science.. pretty laid back and i get to do other things on the side just as well.

ahhhh life... you go schooling and finish up to get a job and when you have a job you wanna quit??

lemme tinker my future s'more...

by the way, dog is dead.

he died the next day.

R.I.P. Ramboo

you're maybe gone, but not forgotten.

50/50

that's right. he'd be lucky to be alive. dog is just too darn weak today he had to be brought to the vet. confined, the doc says his chances of living - slim.

ok, had lotsa dog came our way but this dog is different. he was our first kind that have breeding.. the rest were like mix and match, if you know what i mean.

he was diagnosed to have some sorta liver problem. i hope he wasn't poisoned by some thugs in the neighborhood considering how zealous he was guarding our humble abode.

if they did and i'll find out who did it, somebody's gonna be up for a rude awakening around here.

all that time spent in the gym moving effin' weight, finally, they'll be put to some good use, ha??!

anyway, expect the worst, but hope for the best!


P.S.

something to smile about. we'll go beachin' tomorrow.

celebrate wifeys birthday...with all her super-friends yadi-yada! it's supposed to be recession, right?

oh well.

ciao!

die another day

my dawg ramboo is dying...

i dunno what happened to him. my heart's really heavy right now. i love that dog.

he is one true loyal and trusted guard dog you can count on.

the moment he's out of his cage, he goes around the house and do his job.. and he does it well..

don't ya die on me, man!

septuagenarian

heeeeyyy!

zup?

ya mind if i talk to ya tomorrow?? of course ya don't, yeah?

i knew it.

anyhoo, i hope to look this good when i'm in his age!



fierce!

summer song

though i'm in some kinda trouble, i always play hard.



pump it up, joe!

shake 'em up!

now, this is what ya call innovation!



seriously?!

dough, i'm nuts!

money!!!!!!!!

i'm running short these days, that's what!

yeah, yeah.. don't spend more than you can earn.. i know the drill.

gotta find a way to work around this predicament....

off to rob a bank, homs..

ala John Dillinger!

breakfast at tiffany

ey!

well, it's early in the morning.. been waking up this way for eons now.. i would wake up otherwise if i had a choice..

sad news. a buddy of mine just left for the US yet again. didn't i mentioned a few post ago that most of my pal ain't here no more??

what can i say?? looking for a greener pasture, i guess.

well, his family (wife and son) are there already, so it's exciting for him to go while in most cases, they have to leave their families behind.

anyway, i'll miss that guy cos he used to be my gym buddy. we both have so much respect for each other.

**

meanwhile, i've gotten really stronger in the gym, thank you. i guess when you put your mind into something, you're really bound to go somewhere, yeah?

what's really amazing or shall i say a feather on my cap, is that i got there training with a little help and not much supplementation.. i do have a double servings of caffeine and ten grams of creatine a day. that's about it.

eating five to six meals a day is a routine.. if i skip a mid-morning/afternoon meal, i'll be damn.

i wish it'd be simpler.

anyway, thanks to torrent, i can finally watch the Eraserhead's reunion concert.

SSsssssssshhhhh...

chowin' out!

lea... constantina...

i'm forever in-love with Lea Salonga... she's just soooooo.. uhm!

grrrrrr!!!

hmp!



what can i say??? good material for revival though.. just sayin'....

sensual

ok, this one's funny and uhm... sexy!



we should have a contest like this somewhere.. nyahahaha!

four on the floor!

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just reminiscing the good ol' days, yeh!!!

SR2 in the company of hot nurses.

oh yeah!

yep, it took me a while.. as always.

well, i was busy.

doin' the things i love and uhm, restin' in between.

i do have loads of point to drive at.. like, why do so many people in my country wanna be nurse??

what's so appealing with this job anyway??

long before these guys even get a hold of their diplomas and whatnot, i've been there and back.

ask me why??

talk about on-the-job training and i'm it.

pop was bedridden for over a year while momma suffered waaaayy too many trips to the hospital... 'til she took her last breath.

still have goosebumps whenever i think of those days.. shoot, i'm misty eyed.

no, t'was never a cool experience.. thus, i wouldn't wanna be in some medical course nor i would encourage my son.

all my memories about hospital, white unform, doc, and everything in between ain't too happy...

must be the pay and the chance to get out of this... i dunno country.

most of my pals, they ain't here no more.

figures.

to sir jerry aka SR2, get well soon brotha... i know you're made of some kinda steel somewhere so you will survive this ordeal and get out in one piece.

hope you have a plentiful of good nurses and docs by your side over there.

be well.

ads no more

there.

gone.

squeaky clean, yeah?

i'm happy now.

later.

eff it.

i'm a sellout i know.

next week no more ads and those darn flashy chickenshit "flowers."

promise.

somethin' somethin'

busy.

yep. trying to figure out life.

you can call that, uhm, mid-life crisis. ha ha!

it's pretty weird, actually... how the heck did i come this far and haven't done much with me's and other's life???

or am i just forgetful??

shit.

trying to make sense here...

well, i could've made a choice.

risk a little bit more.

took a decisive approach.

but i always choose the easy route.

yeah, i said it before and i'm sayin' it again - i hate to stressed myself out!

i haven't really gone out with so much zest for anything.

mediocre is an understatement.

i. suck.

so i'm hard on myself... yeah, i needed that!

on the other side of the spectrum, i'm great.

how? by busting my chops.. now, i need to reverse that... uhm, maybe balance it out.

keyword: work harder.

lets see if these tough words translates into action.


meanwhile, will you watch this??




word: boring.

crystal baller

oh hello there!

well, i'm 56 so i'm kinda slow.. no typo in that post below... sorry to disappoint you momma!

anyhoo, i do get a few compliments when i brought along Neil wherever i go.. some people say something like "is he your younger bro??" wahahahaha!!!

really.

especially when i'm on street clothes.. ya know, rugged look.

there are days i feel like shaving... sometimes i just let 'em grow bushy.. no, not down there.. the face, ya prick!

but if i could have it my way, i'd prefer 'em thick and shaggy.. haven't done anything like that since forever!

oh, throw in some skinhead, tattoos and lotsa piercing.. that'd be nice.

but i'm a blue collared hombre.. so 'til the day i'm fired, retired, retard or otherwise, i'm stuck with my everyday get up.

***

bought this today: Total Upper Body Workout Bar.



why i need this when there's about three of this kind in my gym?

well. cos i wanna do it more often. i mean, even when i'm not doing "back" days i wanna do a few sets just to make me stronger with this exercise.

another thing i bought is an Ab-Roller. this exercise is kickass!

ya gotta try it to believe it.



i got some time in the morning to do this dirty little things.. hehe.. might as well make it productive while waiting for my meal to cool down.

i don't earn a dime promoting this stuff, but heck, they are good!

next purchase (if i get lucky) would be a swiss ball.. i know.. i'm getting too serious and boring.

oh well.

i'm 56.

two days ago, that is.

deym. i'm getting old fast!

there's good news and some bad news...

for starters, i'm smarter now than 10 years ago.. now, if i can only go back and bring with me the knowledge and wisdom i've since accumulated, it'd be cool.

bad news is i'm not as energetic and as adventurous as i used to be. well, i have come full circle... settled.

it's a little late to discover my true passion.. weightlifting.

i squatted 440 pounds earlier today.. not bad for an old timer, yeah?

deadlifted close to 400 pounds last week.. did most of this crazy lifts whilst i'm at this age... what if i got hooked on this thing like when i was a teenager?

one year ago i was a nobody in this gym. today, most of the guys know me.. they stop, stare and look in disbelief whenever i do the darnest thing.. he he!

even the guys on roids can't believe their eyes i can almost equal them in strength.

thanks to the good Lord above, i have no injuries while my roided counterpart, they're aching somewhere.

my juiced ex-partner whom i mentioned here before, he can't believe either.

yet, i train alone. i don't like partners, to be honest. it's like i'm in the 'zone' when i train and partners just gimme some kinda reason to slack... ya know, talk smack all the time.

another thing, i do things differently.

i hate training one body part per day. that's a waste of time.

i'd like to hit 'em big for my buck.



steroid use is pretty rampant in my gym.. seems normal to them.

why this guys are in so much of in a hurry? your guess is good as mine.

as soon as they get off, they shrink.

too expensive. too fleeting. too-tal waste of money.

what's even worst: they're not getting any stronger!

mostly aren't even competing.. just for vanity.

same old... same old..

what i learned most as i grew older?

to K.I.S.S.

Keep. It. Simple. Stupid.

tee-hee!

i hate to start.

coz when i start, it'll be hard to stop.

now, the single, biggest, million dollar question is???

where do i begin????

boom!

thoughts flew off... the wind caught 'em all!

well, i've been busy fillin' up my 'toolbox.'

meaning?

learning.

lotsa shit, tell ya that..

anyhoo, i suck on the information department.. i will never ever be a good storyteller in this lifetime so suck it up, bubba!

gotta get my sleep, i just squatted over 400 pounds of hard metal earlier for five repetitions.. oh, been doin' that for quite sometime now..

'til next time.

phoenix

*cough* *cough*

i dunno what's causing the effin' sore all over my upper body.. is it the all-out ballz-to-the-wall workout or that steamy two-hours of "hard" massage i had which both happened yesterday.

oh yeah, the massage left a real nice good imprint on my memory.. ha ha!

i dunno. maybe i have a dirty mind or t'was just a little "cutting edge" the way they do things in there.. she practically rode me and our bodies rubbed on each other half the time.. like her *uhm* is thisclose for comfort to mine.. whatever. didn't do nada.

i assume it was just it - clean massage.

i stepped it up a notch in the gym... yet i'm supposed to back off this month to give my body a much needed rest.

thus, the much needed massage once in a while.






oh yeah, hate it to break it to ya...

i'm back bitches!




what can i say, i dig taylor swift....

i'm done.

this is it.

i'm most likely done.

here.

blogging.

no point.

going further.

i have better use of my time elsewhere than tell you 'bout sweet nothings.

it's ironic.

cos now i can write whatever.. whenever i want.

after all,

i've been connected since months ago.

but i don't feel like it anymore.

oh, life.

but wait....



'til then.

OUT.

could have, should have

booooo-hoooooo!!!

to me.

well, i think i can forget about this blog. there ain't much action going on around here. outside it is.

been busy being swole and sore.. yah, i find it more rewarding... exhilarating..

if only i could transmit my thoughts in here like in an instant, it'll be like twitter.

sooooo much information would've been transcribed and it would have been, crap, boring!!!

nope, i'm not a member and no plans whatsoever. ya hear that, ya facebook farm-town-fanatics??!

anyhoo, i'm ready to hit the sack yet again... i'm sore now, alright.. tomorrow, i'll swell.. cos mah muscles are gonna be bursting outta my shirt, homie!

lotsa love, babe.

Paris

hu-whow!!!

din't saw this but it kinda make me wanna cry...



whatevs!

R.I.P. M.J.

LOL!!!!

hot chills

*yawn*

i've been sleeping really early these days.. oh shit, it's time to hit the sack!

joke.

yeah, wifey told me last night i'm such a bore.

well, i told ya... it's been routine since God-knows-when.

home-work-home... wait, there's gym and bringing slash fetching Neil to and from school.

she finds me boring cos i seem to be 'content' with all the things i'm doing.. but that's not really the case.

my mind is always working.. thinking.. wandering.. busy with all the things i got myself into.

no more night life... tsk.. tsk.. tsk..

i'm just being smart. tearing myself down in the gym like almost on a daily basis, i gotta have ample amount of rest.

not only that. i've been waking up real early too. heck, that's not my style, homie.

i'm usually late.

you can call it a 180 degrees turn since i started this cool habit of workin' out.

drawbacks: a lot.

barely meet my pals... ya know, the good ol' pals that i hang out with before.

it's almost zero to nil.

i do have a few pals... those who share the same passion as me.. no depth, though.

sure, no biggy.

at least i get to socialize a bit.. share my thoughts.. open my mind.. learn.. impart.. give a bit of myself to others.. be inspired.. inspire people..

hell, this is fun, homs!

of course, i never stop there.. i hang around forums too!

and whaddyaknow??!

it's a different field now.. gotta say, i've leveled up!

quite frankly, i'm happy of how things are shaping up.. of course, there are days that's just boring cos things just seem so redundant, but who cares? i'm makin' progress...

though not in leaps and bounds... it's a slow but sure process.

if partying and going out drinking, smoking, dancing, meeting strangers and having sex is fun for ya, lemme die now.

on a second thought, it's fun to do all that once in a while.

ting! ding! ding! ding!

bed is calling... peace and love.

talk to ya later guyz!